Friday, June 25, 2010

free will?

I wish I could claim credit for this stuff,
but it comes from Xenocide by Orson Scott Card (fiction, but read his stuff! it's good)

This is a conversation between two characters, Miro and Ender, about the existence of "free will"
It's long, but definitely worth reading.

Miro:
"... We're capable of connecting with each other by act of will, which no other form of life on Earth can do. There's something we have, something we are, that wasn't caused by anything else."
Ender:
"What, our soul?"
Miro:
"Not even that. Because the priests say that God created our souls, and that just puts us under the control of another puppeteer. If God created our will, then he's responsible for every choice we make. God, our genes, our environment, or some stupid programmer keying in code at an ancient terminal - there's no way free will can ever exist if we as individuals are the result of some external cause."
Ender:
"So - as I recall, the official philosophical answer is that free will doesn't exist. Only the illusion of free will, because the causes of our behavior are so complex that we can't trace them back. If you've got one line of dominoes knocking each other down one by one, then you can always say, Look, this domino fell because that one pushed it. But when you have an infinite number of dominoes that can be traced back in an infinite number of directions, you can never find where the causal chain begins. So you think, That domino fell because it wanted to."
Miro:
"[Bullshit]"
Ender:
"Well, I admit that it's a philosophy with no practical value. [My sister] once explained it to me this way. Even if there is no such thing as free will, we have to treat each other as if there were free will in order to live together in society. Because otherwise, every time somebody does something terrible, you can't punish him, because he can't help it, because his genes or his environment or God made him do it, and every time somebody does something good, you can't honor him, because he was a puppet, too. If you think that everybody around you is a puppet, why bother talking to them at all? Why even try to plan anything or create anything, since everything you plan or create or desire or dream of is just acting out the script your puppeteer built into you."
Miro:
"Despair"
Ender:
"So we conceive of ourselves and everyone around us as volitional beings. We treat everyone as if they did things with a purpose in mind, instead of because they're being pushed from behind. We punish criminals. We reward altruists. We plan things and build things together. We make promises and expect each other to keep them. It's all a made-up story, but when everybody believes that everybody's actions are the result of free choice, and takes and gives responsibility accordingly, the result is civilization."

It continues, and gets better actually. But I don't want to type the entire thing out.
I think you should read the book for yourself! Check it out at the library :)
Start with Ender's Game, then Speaker for the Dead -> Xenocide -> Children of the Mind.
They're all really good.
Ender's Shadow is a parallel novel to the first book, and has a series of its own that follows its protagonist.

I lost my copy of Ender's Game :(
But yeah, if you have time over the summer, I would definitely recommend checking these books out and reading them :)
Or come to me before I leave for Taiwan and I'll let you borrow my copies, as long as you promise to take extra good care of them.
YAY FOR GOOD BOOKS

Monday, June 21, 2010

on forgiveness

here's a little insight into how my brain works:

when you piss me off reaaaal bad
or hurt me or whatever
I'll probably be pretty damn upset for maybe
until I go to sleep and wake up in the morning
and by that time I think to myself, well, it really wasn't that big of a deal...
I'm not angry/sad anymore. I forgive you.

But then again, I think, if I just let you off the hook like that
What's going to stop you from hurting me again?
So most of the time I just act moody/upset at school when really, I'm not
(I convince myself that I am though)
I mostly do this to show you that your actions hurt me deeply
SO DON'T DO IT AGAIN.

sometimes it scares me how fast I get over things
my heart is willing to forgive, but my brain is not
because I think, dude that was really messed what you did... you don't deserve to be back in my good graces so easily.
so I make a show of being unwilling to let things go
but really, I'm a softy at heart

^the above only applies, however, if you're one of my close friends
if I don't know you well enough you're just screwed HAHA
:)

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Alg II/Trig HS5Brice99.83 A006/16/2010 11:30 AM

I'm not sure if it'll go up or down after the comp...so I'll copy and paste it right now :)
this is something I will be proud of for a very, VERY long time.
I challenge all them people taking algebra II / trig next year to beat my grade.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

katti horng 10:32 pm
(10:32:18 PM): i was telling chanmee how
(10:32:28 PM): you are actually the best capable bass clarinet section letter
(10:32:38 PM): the only one suitable for the position

thanks (:
I'm quite flattered, really hehehehe
and I really need to study for bio but
liszt is just too amazing
I can't help but stop and immerse myself in his music
finished my letter of intent btw
hope it's effective