home alone.

alone
everyone's at DC...
man I miss you guys already.
seriously.
you guys are my world.
take care, okay?
I'm not gonna post any more until you guys get back.
ily <3

cramming time!

hah now I gotta crack down, seriously.
so I'll be in my room or something... :P
but today!
got grades back for jensen.
got a 100% on BOTH sections of math comp :D
raised my grade by half a percent, so now I have 97.6
hopefully I beat hannahjoo already...aim for a 98, just in case.
okay so snack
me and jessica and michelle just walked around.
I think I'm a strict teacher XD
I made jessica like recite everything until she got it perfect.
hope she did good on art comps! then pe.
my team won, course. we're pro :D
I kept missing though cause I wasn't aiming.
haha. rita and stephanie made all the shots
but dude that was such a tiring workout - -xx
running up and down... ugh.
but it was fun. I think the other team might've won though, if hannahjoo was there.
but she wasn't. so we won.
then shot hoops for a while, and studied.
yucky yucky. haha elizabeth wrote all over my arm...kind of. yeahhh.
skin cancer here we go!
afterwards
me and michelle walk to the library with jerrie and andrew and julian and paul.
and then me and michelle just talk about...pretty much everything, really.
haha. but it was good bonding time (: yay michelle!
and then I just walked home. met raymond halfway, so she and he went back to the library.
yeahhh.
I also slammed my finger in those movable block things. you knwo the one at the library
where you rearrange to make a picture? yeahhh.
so now my pinky is like internal bleeding or something..
grr. whatever. I'll be fine.
okay guyss. imuna miss you all, seriously. missing you already :P
have fun in dc!
...and now I gotta go cram ><
wish me luck.

comps :D

but no stress tmrw!
already finished taking math.
grades coming out!
oh whoopdedooo.
hope I get a good grade ><
ummm. well I gotta study haha
for collins and park.
science I already crammed like heck
I'll cram on wednesday again I guess.
but yeah. time to study! :D
yayyyy. [unenthusiastically.]
and. I felt discouraged today.
cause ic voted off newsletter.
did you know half of em didn't even know
WE HAD AN EFFING NEWSLETTER. sheesh.
I do all that hard work for nothing, no?
I was right to resign. I feel proud of myself.
yes. I really do agree with myself :D
yeahhh. I sweated a lot in pe today
no clue why
finished math comp! ...it was okay
about as hard as I expected. so yeah.
... Ithink I did good :D
hopefullyyyyy. yeup.
welll.

the inner whitney-ite is urging me to study.
g'bye, folks.

OH YEAH I WAS WATCHING TV AT THE DENTIST.
IT WAS KCAL 9.
heath ledger died.
ms. america = ms. michigan; eating disorder!
millions lost in shoplifting gang O_o
yeahhh. and I watched all those ladies
on the red carpet getting awards.
in their dresses (:

123!

special post.
I"m done studying for today.
ahha!

this post is dedicated for my readers.
figure out who you are!
cause imuna say something. and then you can figure out who you are.
in no particular order:

1) you're my husband, my best friend. you're also my mom's old boy-friend; HOW TWISTED IS THAT? it's okay. I still love you, no matter what. bring it on, man. you're gonna be my best friend for a long time to come. are you ready? cause I sure am. saranghae<3

2) you're my big sister in christ, man. I've known you, what? 7-8 years? but I just started to get to knwo you these past 3 years or so, and I like what I see. you totally pwn me in egyptian war though - -xx. gotta work on my reflexes! we shoudl talk more often, yes?

3) CLIMBS WITH GIRAFFE! you're my making names buddy and rantingness person. I talk to you about people. and then we rant and talk about why we're annoyed (: 143 for life, man.

4) okay, I never thought this before. but indian. SRILANKAN. people can be really really really REALLY awesome. you've proved that to me! :) thank you for being there for me, and talking about jonas brother or vampires or freddy krueger at random times XD WE NEED TO HAVE ANOTHER BURNING CONVO. neh?

5) thank you for putting me in your drama! I'm sure I am the awesomest ting ever :) no? we don't really talk, but you must be someone special! cause you read my blog (: haha I just noticed my smileys go both ways. how strangely interesting!

6) I LOVE YOU FOR ALL YOUR FORGETFULNESS. and you're an awesome indian toooooo :) yessir that's right me and you we rock the house.

7) okay you can be a scrub. and I"ll be an eighth grader! but seriously, I've known for you a long time too eh? since I was littler than little. haha your sister's a pervert. but you're tight. even though you may be paranoid sometimes about "ghosts." PSHH screw the ghosts. I"ll beat them up if any of 'em come anywhere near your direction. you make me day - let's keep it that way.

8) midget! midget midget midget midget (: it's okay. I'm sure you're gunna grow sooon. if you don't, I'll buy you some growth hormones :) and I like your chinese voice! it's all furry furry and rrrrrrr :) like all mainlanders. PWAHAHHAH. still, taiwan pwns. but you're a tight mainlander, no?

9) hey kid. you're too scandalous, mannnn. listen to your mom already >< STOP WEARING THOSE SHIRTS. goodness gracious. and remember, I get to go through al lthe guys you like. before you start dating.

10) okay you're new to my blog! but welcome anyways (: I noticed I talk to you more lately. but it's tighttt (: pickuplines and whatnot, no? we talk about populars a lot too, huh. but it's cool. you're like the only one who relates to me about them! and you're a really big nerd who's hyper inside. LET OUT THE INNER HYPERNESS.

11) best for last. iono. I really look up to you, and I wanted to let you know that. there's really nothing else to say, but be blessed! and thanks for all the car rides ;)
MEGHAN FONG'S COMING TO WHITNEY! WHOOT.
I feel so excited now. (:
okay now I gotta study s'more tmrw.
math comp mult choice (church ppl help, please?) monday
tuesday - pe/get grades in math
wednesday - SCARY. history/english
thursday - science/band.
wish me luck :D

randomness.

I don't know how to bake (sorry stephanie :P)
my brother has armpit hair.
is it 40% or 50%?! big difference.
are zen gardens for meditation or relaxation
rita sprained her pinky
I made one three.
science test was gay.
two x's or three x's?!
I think it's two.
unanswered questions. about life.
alice moving kevin's chair.
passing the basketball back and forth.
psychopath rita.
last WWI german veteran died.
brainfreeze slushie
cram study.
pulled muscle in hand.

random :D

alice,

this post is for you.

cause I read it, and it identified with how I feel kind of (: except my words are no where as eloquent yours are, so I'll say them in "emily" words. HAH :D be unique for once. so. "So I have a person that I love, but want to hate." when you said that. my mind just jumped to stephaniepascua. cause I guess it's like. I try so hard to just NOT get ignored by her, because when I see her and how she acts around other people she gives me a good feeling and stuff yeah? but then like. she 's a freaking popular. so of course I'm gonna get ignored cause I'm jsut a scrub. and when you said that she's been left out but includes people... I just can't see her getting left out. you know it's stephanie's kind of personality that is a really good role model (except for the slight ignoring part). the hard worker, the pretty person, the athlete, the genius. she pretty much has everything - including the twin. it's people like those that normal people want to be around. sort of like hannahjoo. but I think stephanie's better just because I actually talk to her sometimes. and yeah, steph's really nice. but it's just that out of pe or algebra I get freaking annoyed. which pisses me off and makes me want to hate her. but I still "love" her because she really is a very good role model.

you, on the other hand. alice you're crazy (: you make my day most of the time in sixth per jensen. for that one hour, me and you. we're so cool. chillin in the back tuning jensen out XD you really shouldn't say life sucks. because. you now, there are those random parts. those random moments you share with your friends that crack you up that make life NOT suck. you're one of my friends that make my day. be happy. you're my one and only zuoqianxiao. in fact, you're probably the ONLY zuo qianxiao. which makes you even more unique and specialler than you already are (: and I really do hope I'm one of the people knocking you up on the teeter-totter, cause I'd hate to be knocking you down. but just remember - where there's a shadow, there's a light! so don't lose sight of your future. and learn to capture your thoughts and turn them around! :D it really makes a difference when you catch yourself thinking negatively to turn your thoughts around and look on the bright side of stuff! neh?

you know you're really deep these days, alice. it opens me up to the person you really are inside :) and I like it. PWAHAHHAHAH.

okay I'm gonna end this cause this blog is getting long. but alice, remember that your friends are there by your side; there to lift you up when you're down, there to share in your random moments. there to rejoice with you in successes and their to grieve in our failures. that's why we're your friends, no? ily alice f'sho <3

three more on friday

took two tests today.
it was alright, I guess.
played basketball.
but it was pretty boring.
missed like ALL my shots...
depressing.
then in jensen test
stabbed myself with my pencil - -xx
science/english was like okay.
finished poster in history
band was just scale test?
yeah...I think I did okay.
practiced heckuva lot yesterday.
so yeah. it's just really tiring today.
jesus club merge meeting!
pretty cool. sylvia came <3
yay. yeahhh.
haha. yeup taht's my day.
presentation tmrw D:
wish me luck. and pray that I make more baskets
and improve my game in bball (:

the pressure is on.

two tests tmrw
three on friday.
finals next week.
the pressure is on.

today.
made three 3-pointers
shot hoops with the populars
and rita.
got notebook/binder check
liz JUST started on making the gameboard.
we're screwed.
ughh.
pressure is on.

retreat!

friday night.
the bus is like late
so we sit around and do nothing.
kevin wang talks about ocjo and jessica park.
jessica park's actually a really nice person, y'know.
it's just that she's a popular. but she has my respect.
kevin chi gets his ipod to revive! hehe
okay so the bus comes.
we go in. my bus buddy is kevin wang!
cause sylvia was sitting by herself and didn't want people
to sit with her. so I was like. darn
but it was okay! me and kevin were listening to his mp3
classical flute music mann
so pwnage (: double tonguing and stufff
kevin wang sings that three bears song in korean XD
I need to learn that song. so awesome.
so we finally get there at like 10:30
and we're all dead. and samuel preaches a little bit.
but we're all kind of dead. then we head over to the snackbar!
and eat cup noodles and sandwiches
and hang out until like 2ish.
dum dum dumm. go to sleep

saturday!
wake up at 4-5 ish in the morning
cause it was like a freaking sauna up in my bunk
it was right next to the heater...
actually really get up at like 6:30
then me and linda and sylvia head over to prayer meeting
which was pretty good just to gather and pray.
sessions over the course of the day
do hwk for three hours in the afternoon..
then take a freezing shower
and watch some paintballing with kevin and chloe and amy.
altar call at night.
it was really good. then go back to the room
elissa's already sleeping on the rollaway bed..
so I moved over to the bunk farther from the heater
sleep.

sunday!
more sessions. we didn't manage to get up in time for the prayer meeting.
small group devos
breakfast
morning session..chloe and yvonne testimony.
small group
lunch! then I go on the spinny thing (:
and feel like puking afterwards.
haha then me and kevin chi and grace go into the gym
we play some horse
kevin chi freaking makes this impossible shot from like half court
and grace kept on making those really small angle shots.
I need to work on my close in shots and outside the key.
but basketball's still my passion!
play some handball (which I haven't done for forever)
watch lawrence and samuel hsieh wrestle XD
then we get in our game groups!
me, sharon, grace, kevin wang, kevin chi, gabriel, brian wang, jaspar.
pretty tight.
play all these games
like that impossible number thing where we got tangled ><
then that board thing where you're supposed to work as a team and step together.
...which we didn't really do. sharon ended up pulling everyone uphill. haha.
bible jeopardy! won by five points. whoot!
haha it was me and irving, then gabe and tong, then sharon and brian chen.
so intimidating XD
haha tong! zion? for where moses died. ERRRRR. wrong. XD
sharon was pwnage. she answered like half the questions before sam was done asking.
she also came up with most of the answers for group question. (:
then follow the leader! we're all blindfolded and walk in a line.
stupid imaginary table >< making us bend down for no reason.
but it was fun. haha then! faith falling.
dude that was scaryy.
it's like we all got into this line. and then we put our arms out straight.
then one person goes up on this wall and falls over backwards
so it's like complete trust that your people are there
cause there's no tangible evidence.
but still, it was fun (: I wanna go again.
and like. I got banged in the head by eric huang when he fell - -xx
amanda comes! but my head is still kind of blehhh
so I don't go on the spinny thing again.
I just shoot some hoops with eric huang in the gym, me and him.
then dinner! and then back to the gym
shoot some more hoops. watch sharon and jonathan and joshua nad james
make all these three pointers ...insanely jealous :P
chloe and tammy and betty leave
evening session. we played like psychiatrist or osmething?
and then rewards for the teams. eddie leu and brian chen play this really weird game xD
it was so funny though. like they rock paper scissors
and there's like a basket and a pillow on the floor.
so the losing person has to run and get the basket and put it over their head
before the person with the pillow whacks them in the head.
soooo funny XD
then altar call
which was really good. me and sylvia got in our own little group.
and I guess I actaully shared for the first time in a long time? yeahhh...
then we al lhead over to the snackbar XD
or well I shower first. then go
finish my collins test review and study science a little.
drink coke. only 75 cents for a can! so cheap. (:
then me and sylvia and linda go back up and sleep.

monday (today)
wake up. it snowed overnight! but it's just like a really thin layer
of powdery stuff. still, it's pretty (:
pack a little..then walk down to breakfast
eat! take lots of pictures. I went yvonne hunting.
me and josh and allen and ted were like in the snackbar
after breakfast
playing "ted's cellphone magic."
cause they couldn't figure out black magic - -xx
we also played how much is this and that finger game and what time is this.
haha. ted made it sooooo obvious. and they still couldn't get it..
morning session! more pictures.
sharon's message was good, man.
lunchhh. it's good (:
fake asian food. but it's still good. I get seconds (:
take lots more pictures
then afternoon sharing. and leaving.
I listened to my ipod really loud in the car
cause I didnt' want to listen to the car music
so right now
my left ear's like partially deaf
and is hurting.....rawr. how saddening.
hopefully it'll be better by tmrw! and now I must practice scales.
and get ready for scale test.
and study. - -xx

I'll post more if I remember anything.
oh! we also played this "pilgrim's mission" game
which is really assassin. it was fun
but I got killed too fast. you can look it up on wikipedia (:

retreat today!

julian's birthday.
yayyyy
umm. boring day.
yeah.... six games in basketball!
whoot. I love my team, man.
cross-dressing orange. ask me for pictures; I might show you later XD
talked to christine a bit cause we bumped into each other at the microwave.
christine's cool mann. and mr. orange was beautiful!
no matter what they say.... haha and im going to talent show f'sho
see mary play "chopin polonaisee."
and chns club/club kai and other stuff. yeup.
jesus club meeting kind of.
it wasn't even really a meeting.
just four people, plus me and jerrie and paul.
but it was really good!
our prayer meeting and them are gonna combine.
cause iono. I get this feeling from them like...
they're really deeply rooted in God.
so that makes me feel nice to place my trust in them
trust that they won't turn me away.
but iono it helped me regain my trust in them.
it's nice to be able to trust something.

and yeah...
seven miles officially this week.
see courtney again! haha I was like.
YOUR SISTER'S SCANDALOUS.
and ellie, of course is all like.
WHATTTT. I'M WEARING JEANS AND A SWEATER.
HOW IS THIS SCANDALOUS.
it just is, ellie. accept it. haha and then like
courtney's in the front right?
so ellie gets in the front too and she pulls courtney on her lap
and courtney's protesting XD
so funnyy. she's like. THIS IS AGAINST THE LAW
AHAHHAHAH. cracked me up.
but I think it's really cute
the way ellie and courtney love each other in their own little ways.
haha and.
freakkkk.
blisters >< haha.
retreat, here I come!

resignation letter.

_____________ 2008

Hannah Santasawatkul
WHS C/O 2013 7th Grade President

Dear Ms. Santasawatkul:

It is with both regret and anticipation that I submit this letter of resignation, effective ___________ 2008. Circumstances require that I resign my position as newsletter editor of Whitney High School's Class of 2013. I have decided to further my education in the pursuit of happyness. I have also decided to take this time to evaluate my current goals and investigate new opportunities in various areas of life. Furthermore, I have accepted a position as Messrs. Ellie Shin, Jessica Liu, and Shivanti Kariyawasam's best friend, as an opportunity to achieve growth in a role of a companion to others.

It has been an eye-opening experience working with the inner council of Whitney High School's Class of 2013. I have enjoyed working with certain members of the WHS 2013 IC, and I will miss my associations here. I wish you and the class of 2013 of WHS's inner council continued success in all your endeavors. These past few weeks as a member of Whitney High School's class of 2013's Inner Council has helped me determine my career path as a friend to others in my future.

If I may be of any assistance in the hiring process of training of my replacement, please know that I will gladly make myself available to this effort during the next three weeks.

Thank you for allowing me to serve Whitney High School's class of 2013's Inner Council. Again, I wish Whitney High School's class of 2013's Inner Council continued success.

Sincerely:
Emily Yang

cc: WHS C/O 2013 IC
Mrs. Torres
Mr. Wallace

retreat tmrww

makes excited noise. yayuh.
haha this week
so tiring. finished three articles for japan project
walked/ran six miles about.
practiced piano a bunch.
thinking about resigning ic.
and my bball team is pro.
we cool like that, me and steph and rita and stephanie.
yayuh.
yeahh...tests back. 100. yay.
today we walked to kfc!
and then me and alice walked back to whitney.
we jsut talked. and ranted. and talked.
bonding experiences. (:
ILY too alice foreverandeverETC.
I've had lots this week.
and ellie was mistakenly perverted in a moment today - -|||
COUGH COUGH
but I know she loves me. so I forgive her.
also I played raymond and ellie that pushing game.
I must improve.
PWAHAHHAHAHA. and be the master of them all.
raymond ku's pretty cool actually.

and yeah. this week has just been so tiring.
looking forward to retreat & relaxation.

tuesday!

was okay.
walked home - -xx
but it's okay.
me and jessica were fooling around going places
to look for her blowdryer XD
me and michelle talked a little.
umm. found elle's lock in the locker room!
cause I don't have one myself. so I was looking
then jessica gave me hers!
the combo's 23-1-7
her locker itself is...something.
I forgot again XD
switched seats in jensen!
whoopee. I like it. I'm sitting next to alice and stephanie
with joyce in front ><, kevin chong to diagonal left and isaac to diagonal right
I just moved over one, so I'm still up against the wall (:
but I like my seat. it's good.
science test! easy. band. hope people fessed up already.
basketball. boring. WE'RE STARTING TMRW! (:
and now I'm sitting here writing another article for japan project
so I won't have to work on it at retreat.
yeup. that's my day in a walnutshell! (:

but. this post is dedicated to sylviatran.
as it was yesterday in case you didn't figure that out.
because I guess. iono.
we've grown up together, and she really is very precious to me.
she makes me look forward to going to church
and..I really do love her.
no matter what I say when I can't think of anything.
but. yeah. she's my big sister fooo.
y'all better back off. SHE'S MINE! :D

failures.

man
today was pretty bad
two hour detention for band
basketball was okay.
except stephanie kept on going BALL BALL.
so I passed it to her and she made most of em so whatever.
ic was bleh. got my shirt, voted on some stuff.
jensen I failed my linear graphing quiz.
so today was just....yeah.

but. iono.
it's those seemingly innocent conversations
that turn into something deep, something that makes you
open up your heart and cry and say what you've been feeling.
to another person. and they still don't understand.
that person in whom I place my trust and love
who's trying to get me to open up more in cg.
who deserves for me to open up. somehow there's something
blocking me from doing so
something that cries out, "
NO. I DON'T WANT TO. I DON'T WANT TO SHARE."
why do they want to know about my life, know about how I feel
when they've already wronged me in the past, hurt me so deep that
I don't want to share anymore.
I don't want them to know about my life. maybe they don't even know
that they've hurt me so deeply, made such a great impact
on the way I act towards them now.

but it does.

and it's that reason that stops me from sharing.
stops me from revealing past hurts, stops me from having anything beyond a
"SOLID AS A ROCK." conversation with any of these people.
yes, I love them. but. how am I to explain
that indescribable feeling inside of me. I've already made up my mind
that I wasn't going to share in cg group after the last time I've been hurt.
sharing? I do that at school. with the people that enjoy being around me,
enjoy me for who I am - annoying or not.
and....I don't even really know what I expect from church people.
I guess I just expect them to talk to me and take joy
in chilling with me. the same as ellie, jessica, jenny, shivvy, izzy, and so many other people do.
THEY are people I am more than proud to call friends.
they're people with an age difference between me and them that still
choose to breach it and discover me.
they're people that've patched the hurts church people have inflicted.
people that at least try to be there for me all the time,
always open to my rants and worries and complaints.
thank you for being there for me.
and yet, like I told _______. you're not going to get me to talk
until you understand how I feel. about life in general.
and I know you're not going to read this
unless I tell you about it. to give you a chance to get inside of my head.
but I'll tell you anyways because I think you deserve it
maybe, just maybe. maybe now you will understand.

todayy

was okay!
I'm seriously considering paintballing now.
cause if I go. amy goes! then chloe's gonna go!
then yvonne's gonna go!
haha.
pretty happy with my retreat room - it's me sylvia linda
we're connected to tina olivia elissa though ><
it's okay olivia's in there!
she's cool.
AND SHARON'S COMING BACK TMRW!
and samuel doctorian spoke today.
pretty cool. he reminds of mista raabe.
but cooler. and I should start studying for comps.
but I don't feel like it (:
during retreat I'll bring my stuff and start studying..
at least I"m done with newsletter!
so I can study in peace
then I gotta do japan project...bleh.
I'm thinking I'm gonna get everyone to write two articles in a week,
two articles the next.
this way we have finals week to work on the layout of the newspaper
and I can concentrate cause my eighth grade friends are gone.
but I gotta get those articles done during retreat ><
or during this week. we'll see. mann.
pressure's building up.

16 days til comps.

school and church.

you know the thing is that.
me and sylvia were talking about this.
I was like "I like school better than church." (which is really true.)
and she was like blah blah blah.
blah blah blehhhhh. about why church is better.
I mean I guess in some parts it is.
I grow more in God at church, since we all share the same passion.
but don't I do taht at school too?
so sylvia's like,"
well that's good but then like it's like..you belong officially to this church.
this youth group you've grown up with. so church people should be closer."
but then at school it's kind of like
we have prayer meeting and everything, and I think I actually share more
with my little prayer group
than I do in cg.
and then I was thinking about it again today.
because I told myself I was going to blog about it.
and then invite sylvia to my blog to read what I couldn't think of yesterday.
the main difference about church and school is that

at school.
I'm respected. I'm loved. I'm looked up to.
I make a difference in the way I live,
in the way I interact with people.
school people actually make an effort
to understand and get to know me
they're people that I understand myself,
that love me as much as I love them.
school is my oppurtunity to
show the world what I"m made of.
and expect people to see me and look.

but then at church.
what am I?
insignificant.
that sums it all up
pretty much.
I don't feel like I'm worth something
worth anything
church people are still my family, yeah?
and i"m still real close with them.
but it's not like...
iono. everyone's grouped up according to age
and I don't really fit in that good. but whatever
they're still family.
and family means no one gets left behind ^^
yes it does.

I still like school better though.
unless something dramatic happens at retreat.
and makes me change my mind.

library and life.

chinese school in the morning!
we play jenga. so intenseeee (:
haha we stacked it all crazy on top.
so it kept falling over and leaning.
we must've played 20-30 times XD
later we have prizes.
I get two quest dollars.
we go back. and play again! hehee :D
then art. we look at surreal pictures
with naked people. by salvador dali.
rihanna says she knows christine castillo. remind me to askk (:

then! afterwards.
I play a little bit of ms. then I go to the library!
and I find andrew and jerrie and the tetzlaff girll.
jin young jung jung jin jung young! hehee.
she's pretty cool. I hope she makes it next year!
the lady kind of kicks us out again.
cause first me and jinyoung and andrew and jerrie
were at the computers. and the lady was like
one person per computer!
so me and jerrie drifted away. then jessicaliu and tiffanyliu came!
so we bunched up again. then the lady was like.
since you guys don't know how to follow rules.
you should go downstairs. and then me and jessica and tiffany left.
we talked about how all the library people hate kids XD
then I left.
but yeah. it was pretty cool
made a new friend! jinyoung jung! I really hope she makes it next year.

and me and andrew talked a little bit about how hannahjoo's emo.
how she cries.
I really hope she's okay for once . haha.
she doesn't really deserve it. but I hope she's okay.

it's finally friday!

yessirreee.
friday's here!
band picture day.
I shoulda bought a picture >< size="3">

new! cause I forgot about this.
THAT LADY WAS MEAN MAN
THE ONE WATCHING US
DURING 4TH PER.
she was like. oh I just got a text message from mr. england
if you don't shut up right now
everyone gets four hours detention from mrs. jensen.
which was obviously a lie.
but we were like. whatever.
she was really man. and grouchy.
I bet it's cause her bf dumped her cause she was too ugly.
haha but in band judy karen michelle doodle on my algebra book.
I write all over jessica's planner (:
mary makes a loud BANG noise on the floor when the lady says shh.
and I sat there doing nothing so haha. (:

today went by pretty quick
lunch was fun
me and jessica just walked around.
we saw hannahjoo. but more on that later.
ummmm. yeah so we showed up kinda late
and I pretty much ditched prayer meeting cause I had to do makeup quiz which was gay.
I dumped all my clothes in ellie's locker after we were done taking pictures XD
heheeee. anyways jensen was pretty cool
we got to work on our tests for fifteen minutes!
so I fixed my careless mistake.
collins was gay as usuall
some stupid map of japan we had to label and color.
after school was fun! cindy and I discussed a little bit about my japan project team
which is me, her, joyce le, and michelle yoshimotooo.
pretty good group. I'm happy.
I hang out with jessica. we walk to my locker.
then I retrieve my crap from ellie's locker.
then we go to pe to get jessica's stuff.
and then we go out and her dad's waiting, so she leaves.
my dad was waiting too, so I left.
and yeah that's my day.

but about hannah joo when me and jessica walked past
...she was crying, mann. and talking to jessicapark about it.
and I guess that just goes to say even if your life may appear like perfect on the outside.
you might have it all - friends, prettiness, social status, wealth, family, smarts, etc.
your life can still fall apart I guess.
I should pray for her. maybe all she needs is God's touch.
because even if you might have it all.
your life might be empty on the inside.
then maybe she'll change for the better. hopefully.
well anyways I hope she's okay for once...

later: me and angel have a nice discussion as the result of her creating an accidental chat room (:
we talked about like populars and stuff. it was a pretty good talk. thanks, angel (:

even later! after church:
oh at church it was pretty cool
discussion on jukka/merdia? yeah.
I really wnat a long-term pastor..
not just one for like two years
but one that'll stay for the rest of my youth years.
anyways. later we come home! and then we see flashing lights outside
and there's like! ambulances! and fire engines! on the other side.
near the korean house. so we were talking to the white real estate agents.
and we figured someone probly had a heart attack cause there's no smoke
or people rushing out. so I hope they're okay! (:

running.

to run is to set oneself free
from all your worries and troubles.
to run is to forget why you're here
you're just focused on keeping a good pace,
catching up to people, making the time.
there's nothing really troubling you cept if your leg cramps up.
or if you trip and fall.
for me, running is my anti-drug.
it makes me feel good afterwards.
it gives me the feeling that I've done something of note. (kind of, but not really)
running is also like flying. you're above the normal worries of the world.
unconcerned,

unburdened,

free.

running's also like life.
sure, you may not be the best at it.
like me.
but you don't have to be good
to enjoy what you're doing
you don't have to be really good
to be successful.
as long as you try your best - that's what counts.

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anyways today was a pretty okay day.
science was SUPER frustrating though.
cause my table wouldn't listen to me when we were putting a venn diagram together.
it turned out I was right in the end.
and I was just like... - -xx *&%$@%
band - I LOVE THAT SONG. return of the dawn treader (:
it's so cool. pe I gotta practice shooting better.
jensen...ugh. careless mistake on test ><
collins it's just notes as usual.
and in pe I lapped everyone five times! which was probably what inspired my thing.
up there.
haha and ooh! getting new glasses soon (:
they're gonna be brownish goldish yeahh.
and that green light was scary ><
it shot air into your eyes! scaryyy.

RAHHHHHwr.

dum dum dumm.
nothing of note, really.
cept shannon joined our bball team ><
japan projects started!
right now my team is me and cindy.
gonna pick two more people later.. any suggestions?
umm. then like jensen test tmrw D:
gotta work on newsletter which I don't feel like doing...
I'll try to get it out before monday then...
umm. ooh! I named mary's trombone uncle michelley!
for michelle pang who I called uncle michelley.
cause she was the only trombone at our elementary.
and I found out mary has a brother.
and... good job jessica for actually doing entertainment fast.
I'm really impressed, actually.
haha. yeup. that was my day...pretty okay averageish.

OOH AND I RAN REALLY REALLY FAST.
well not really.
I just like jog-sprinted
for five minutes. cause like.
my feet were itching to run (:
I lapped everyone 2-3 times!
hehe (:but I started slowing down at the end
cause I got tired.
it was fun to float like a butterflee (:
heheeee.

oh happy day!

haha today was pretty good.
ms park came back (:
torres was okayyyy. england was like yeah.
haha during snack me and karen and tiff chen were all like
imitating chinese poetry XD it was awesome.
yeah so. pe my indecision was solved!
cause I decided not to become team captain.
cause rita labooby came up to me and was like imuna try to pick you
and she's good. so I was like. okay! so I decided not to become capt.
so then I got picked by rita, and here's my team! (i'm pretty happy with it)

RITA LABOOBY
(her real name's labeeb, but yeahh)
Stephanie Pascua.
Me.
Stephanie Fong.

stephanie (fong)'s funny and so is rita
and rita and stephanie (pascua) are pro
so I think this round either us or the populars are gonna dominate
yayuhh (:
then jensen was like yeah. bleh.
collins was bleh.
lunch was okay? hahaa....freeloaded (:
yeah. pretty good day overall!

first day back :D

it was pretty okay (:
just to see everyone again made me really happy
today was kinda retarded though.
I was looking forward to running! but nooooo.
we watch some stupid video. band music was pretty fun.
got hwk from collins/jensen - -xx
and it's shivvy's birthday today! WHOOOOOOT
she promises not to be a gay fourteen-year-old. right shivvy? ;)
and I got to write on her locker wrapping (:
heheeee. but yeah. it's been so good to see y'all
y'all haven't changed one bit ;)
indecision has been put off for one more day.

We should get jerseys
Cause we make a good team
But yours would look better than mine
Cause you're out of my league

And I know that it's so cliche
To tell you that everyday
I spend with you is the new best day of my life
And everyone watching us
Just turns away with disgust
This jealously
They can see that we've got it going on

I can not wait for a new improved way
To let you know you're more to me than what I know how to say
You're ok with the way this is going to be
Cause this is going to be the best thing we've ever seen

If anyone could make me a better person, you could
All I gotta say is I must have done something good
You came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right

Maybe I'm just lucky
Cause it's hard to believe
That somebody like you'd end up with someone like me
And I know that it's so cliche
To talk about you this way
But I'll push all my inhibitions aside
It's so very obvious
To everyone watching us
That we have got something real good going on

dedicated to a special someone who I do love dearly.
so this jealous vibe I pick up shouldn't be happening (:
maybe I'm wrong. butstill. I do love you mann. sa rang hae 143.

indecisions

but first. happy birthday pauline!

ackhem.qwertyuiop: kay pauline's birthday is past.
xisab3lx: did u greet her in anyway?
xisab3lx: did u scream it out the window
xisab3lx: hoping the wind
xisab3lx: would carry the message to her

and tmrw's shivvy's birthday~ school school school starting (:

today was pretty funny too though. tease chloe as usuall
linda was looking like her mom with her glare free clean galsses!
so it looked like her glasses had no lenses XD
and eddie performed surgery on olivia's laptop :D
something about replacing the RAM or yeah
but olivia was so funny (:
she was like. BE CAREFUL BE CAREFUL
and taking pictures the whole time during the 'operation'
and in the end she's like
"wo de xiao bai..." in a sad voice XD (cause her laptop's white)
so funny (:
then yeah. can't wait for school!
oh yeah indecision.

POPULAR VS. GOOD FRIEND.

stephanie pascua or elizabeth lee for basketball ><
cause both of 'em are like first round picks for sports
and I want both on my team!
stephanie's better, and I'd have fun with both, but more with liz.
and then there's always the thing about steph ignoring me which sucks.
and me having four classes with liz and hanging out with her most of the time
but then like stephanie strikes me as a really nice person.
and I wanna get to know her better.
but liz is already really cool and I'm not even sure if steph would resent me
for choosing her to be on my team.
so it's like. ARGHHHHH

vote on it (:
xisab3lx: im voting for ELIZABETHHH =D

yeah. and I had another indecision..but now I can't remember.
if I do, I'll edit later.

entertainment fast. IT'S DONE!

ahahhahha it is done (:
woohooo. so now I can play games
and listen to secular music!
party later today...might update later :P
and school's almost back.
WHOOOT.
yeahhhh. mocha frap, chns final (I think I did good)
time to play insaniquarium (:

http://www.arcadetown.com/insaniquarium/gameonline.asp?aid=1129599

open using ie! not firefox. (:

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entertainment fast done (:
haha we had fun hanging at tedder's house.
throwing that fat goat at chloe XD
and just chilling I guess.
couch game! bbq, brownies, COKE, pink bunnies.
chariots of fire - good movie (:
yeahh. just getting to bond with each others more.
OH SHOOT I FORGOT MY PRIZE BOOKS.
okay nvm. I just forgot. haha.
oh yeah! my retreat room I'm pretty happy with.
pretty good, I guess.

SYLVIA (leader!)
leenda. me. elissa (eww)
but the others I'm fine with.
sylvia's my leader! so I'm happy.
yeup (:

nothing new.

well, there's nothing that's gonna happen today.
anything exciting at least.
meeting the finnish couple, but I already did.
soo. I decided to copy michelle (w/o her permission of course :P )
and do visual dna (: hope you don't mind.

so this is what I like!

okay I killed the visual dna thing. cause it wasn't working for some unknown reaosn
so whateverr (:

and michychang! I beat your japanese iq thing TWICE. SO THERE (:

new!

new blogskin!
d'ya like it?
anyways this is like testing. cause I haven't gotten everything hammered down yet..

100th post!

whoot
how exciting.
but since there's nothing really of note to say
I'll just post some lyrics.

you won't relent until you have it all
my heart is yours

i'll set you as a seal upon my heart
as a seal upon my arm
for there is love that is as strong as death
jealousy as demanding as the grave
and many waters cannot quench this love

come be a fire inside of me
come be the flame upon my heart
come be the fire inside of me
until you and I are one

forerunner/new year's

haha I"m back
it was fun. I liked it
but I'm glad to be back!
didya guys miss me?
I know you diddd. don't lie ;)
haha so I guess it was pretty fun
the worship kept on getting better.
but it was like an hour long
ihop style so it was like
half worship/half waiting on God.
I didn't really get into it though
until the last couple of days
so I feel bad cause I wasted time...
the messages got better too
and hanging out was always da bomb XD
cards and snaps and everything.
and...yeah. forerunner was worth it
counting down yelling on the balcony
running up the down escalator! (THREE TIMES)
jumping on the bridge on the ninth floor
climbing stairs.
all worth it. I wanna go again next year!
(:
and of course, there's the elusive 'keyboard.'
who jessica is madly in love with XD JK
hehe. and finding waldo!
and yeah. staying up late and everything.
but it's good to be back too!
SO
WHAT HAVE YOU GUYS BEEN UP TO