dum.DA DUM. dum.

k todayy.

I went to church.
well actually first.
I had a really REALLY weird dream.
where michelle changg. told me that she had to go to tetzlaff.
because she moved. or something.
so I freaked out. and started fighting monsters (:
yeup weird dream.

anyways. so at church today.
did chinese hwk. blehh.
finished five pages of standards (:
on stupid chinese zodiac.
shu niu hu tu long se ma yang hou ji gou ZHU.
chloe was crying in the morning D:
it made me feel helpless. because I couldn't do anything.
...it's not a nice feeling.
so anyways. later she became ok so that was cool.
we had a sermon today. about practical holiness.
and pastor sam had a lemonade AND POISON. experiment.
to symbolize the world around us and deception.
talked about. umm. how we actually live a holy life.
in sunday school it was about how God is

1. Transcendent - he's above all laws of this world, supreme authority, above creation.
   
2. Imminent - he's present in creation, but still above it; not the same. sustainer of the universe

yeupp. and then yeah. I kinda learned how to play drum set!
from kevin chi.
hehe. I can do the most simple rhythm.
but that's about it (:

....I have to go to sleep at 9:30 today.
because I'm waking up at 6. to go to school at seven to help angela put up posters (:

jaimini, climbing lockers, checking out guys x]

GETTING KILLED.
MY GOAL IN LIFE

9/28/07
events of

k we're gonna start with the last topic. cuz it started first XD
so this was in pe. and then like suddenly carolina sees these guys coming out
and she's like. WHOA. that guy's cute.
and me and mary and shavonna were like WOAHHHH.
CHECKING OUT GUYS?! ahha.
and she was like noooo.
so we play football. later I see her looking back there again.
and I'm like oolala <3.>_> she played with it the whole time.
I HEARD IT GO. TINK. TINK.
the wholeeee time. ahha I gave it to her over the weekend.
see if she figures it out
anyways. so angela's running for scrub pres.
and she's like. can you climb lockers?
and I'm like. I can try (:
so I tried. and failed miserable. so we're going around
looking for someone to teach me how to climb (:
and I see jamiee. so I'm like
HEY JAIMINI.
and jamiee freezes. glares at me. and then goes
ARGHHHHH. and she starts chasing after me
and she starts choking me XD
and the funny thing was. jamiee was like dragging me backwards by my collar
and then serin comes up with my puzzle thing and is like.
how do you do it.
so while I get dragged backwards
and gasping for breath. I explain to serin how to do it (:
and then I'm like AHHH. and I trip. jamiee trips.
she looses her hold. I run for Jensen XD
ehehheh.

yeahh.
but then today the bad part was. I see my friend walk away again
from her group of friends. and I'm like. you okay?
....because she's obviously not.
and still. I can't help but worry about her...
sigh.

better and better everyday.

today...mmph.
today was pretty cool.
MY BASS CLAR IS GETTING BETTER AND BETTER EVERYDAY. XD

yeup yeup (:
I can play low G now.
and sometimes F. if I play C first XD
scale test on scale #2 major AND minor monday D:
noo. imma so totally fail.
but there's only two bass clars so it's ok (:
keke
and it's a really slow tempo so that helps toooooooo. yeah.

for pe. umm.
pretty cool
haha pe was funnn
I'm on umm. carolina's and shavonna's and mary's team. with other scrubs
haha they're so funny XD
makes me look forward to pe
but we have this bossy little dude on oour team.
SOOOOO ANNOYING.
yeah. haha we lost today
but it was okay. because we had fun.
haha carolina
"I'M A GOOD QUARTERBACK."
throwsthe ball to the opposing team.
"I'M A GOOD HIKER."
quarterback doesn't catch it.
haha mary's funny too (:
we had this play we were gonna do and like.
we all run off to the endzone.
she pretends to throw it. then runs
supposedly.
see what happened was we ran off.
she pretended to throw it.
SCREAMED FIRST XD
then ran. we gained maybe two inches (:
but it was fun.

haha pe/band are like the highlight of my day (:
because I actually have fun.

thinking.

pwahahha.
k. resuming today.
no longer under construction (:

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that's pretty much what my mind looks like right now.
it's not pretty; I know.

the thing I don't like about whitney as of now.
is that I don't really fit into any little groups.
like I'll get along with everyone. talk to them
have fun.
but then like...when it comes to
walking to classes. eating lunch. or wahtever friends do.
I find that I'm always alone.
...it kinda sucks. and it's like
as you can see to the right and up ------>
that's what I'm thinking. it's like
why don't I fit in?
why am I not accepted?
it's not to the point where I'm like a social outcast
and no one wants to talk to me.
but it's just that I don't fit into anyone's groups.
that as someone from cerritos el.
I don't fit into their group either
so now....iono.
I really am probably gonna go back to eating with my bluee trashcan.
but I'm still trying. still hoping. still praying. still yearning.
for more of this life.

achem.

today.
or rather yesterday because I didn't have time then (:

concerning the events of 9/25/07
from 6:00 - 7: 40

back to school night! it was ok. I guess
because jocelyn came and I was like yesss. and I watched over her (:
like a good big sister does :P
talked about stuff. it was just like
yeahh. getting back in touch. getting to know each other better?
mmhm! (:
but I didn't manage to talk her out of getting a boyfriend.
ifshe does..that's her problem I guess.
I've tried.
she's not listening. but when she falls after
I'm gonna try to be there to pick her up.
but we all learn from our mistakes so yeahh.

anyways after hanging out with her
like having fun and everything
I just realized how much I really do miss all my school friends.
and it makes me sad.
and then like that iono...
there is a person who I care about A LOT.
and it makes me feel upset when she's ignored.
and then she goes away
and no one notices. pretty much
and I go over to her and I see like she's almost crying it looks like.
so it makes me feel bad that her feelings were hurted.
because me and her are tight (:
and it's bad when she's sad :[
yeahh. but iono what to dooo.
so it's like.
GAHHH. SO HELPLESS.