so I really do learn something new everyday
today, I was talking with jean lo.
and she asked me
jean: is there a ms. park at whitney high? deliana park..
me: why?
jean: cause she's my old high school classmate, and she added me on facebook
me: WHAT THE!
jean: yeah all our worlds our colliding haha :)
next time I see ms. park I'm going to ask her if she knows jean "chang" hehehhehehe
dude this totally puts ms. park in a whole other light
now she's actually like... someone I can go up to and talk to like I do with jean
who, by the way, is COUGHthirtyfourCOUGH glowing with life.
and get hugs from (:
she went to sunny hills for high school, in case y'alls were wondering.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Saturday, January 30, 2010
so I've resolved most all my problems now
they're going away, bit by bit.
I like this.
I love my friends.
we're done with finals, two more weeks of basketball,
three/four more weeks of piano and I'm home free!
I really gotta start studying my music theory though .____.
so I'm thinking about changing my blogskin
but I need to find one first.
any suggestions? :)
oh and I wrestled alex the other day
if any of y'alls wanna wrestle, just hit me up!
I'll be more than happy to oblige :D
they're going away, bit by bit.
I like this.
I love my friends.
we're done with finals, two more weeks of basketball,
three/four more weeks of piano and I'm home free!
I really gotta start studying my music theory though .____.
so I'm thinking about changing my blogskin
but I need to find one first.
any suggestions? :)
oh and I wrestled alex the other day
if any of y'alls wanna wrestle, just hit me up!
I'll be more than happy to oblige :D
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Monday, January 25, 2010
Lady Kelsey Chang Q: wow I'm good I guessed where your formspring was hehehe (:
so here's a question for you:
How are you doing, for reals?
A: haha pretty alright. what did i tell you before?
http://www.formspring.me/kuhCHANG/q/78327482
Annie Yau
LOOOL KELS I PROMISE. REALLY. NOT LYING. THIS IS HILARIOUSLY COINCEDENTAL THOUGH HAHAHA
'bout one turn o' yer hourglass ago
Kelsey Chang
THEN WHO THE HECK IS IT, FORREALS?!?!?!?!
'bout one turn o' yer hourglass ago
Annie Yau
IT WOULDN'T BE FORREALS, CAUSE THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE.
INSTEAD, I HAVE ANALYZED THIS:
1) IT'S A STALKER
2) YOU GIVE FAKE IMPRESSIONS TO HIM/HER
3) HE/SHE WANTS TO KNOW IF YOU'RE REALLY DOING ALRIGHT, HENCE HE/SHE CARES ABOUT YOU...(tharr be more) Peer into the depths
4) MOST LIKELY A GIRL (CAUSE GUYS DON'T GIGGLE MUCH)
5) TOOK A BILLION TRIES TRYING TO FIND YOUR FORMSPRING
THAT'S ALL. SO IT'S ALL IN ALL HE/SHE IS A STALKER. YOU HAVE PLENTY OF THEM. :)
INSTEAD, I HAVE ANALYZED THIS:
1) IT'S A STALKER
2) YOU GIVE FAKE IMPRESSIONS TO HIM/HER
3) HE/SHE WANTS TO KNOW IF YOU'RE REALLY DOING ALRIGHT, HENCE HE/SHE CARES ABOUT YOU...(tharr be more) Peer into the depths
4) MOST LIKELY A GIRL (CAUSE GUYS DON'T GIGGLE MUCH)
5) TOOK A BILLION TRIES TRYING TO FIND YOUR FORMSPRING
THAT'S ALL. SO IT'S ALL IN ALL HE/SHE IS A STALKER. YOU HAVE PLENTY OF THEM. :)
57 shots o' rum ago
Kelsey Chang
does that mean you're my stalker, franny?!?! ♥ awwwww.
55 shots o' rum ago
damn y'alls are crazy
hehe this cracked me up
annie, you can't tell her.
seriously this is the only way I can interact with her normally
without feeling wound up
through this weird formspring thing lool
I love it. (:
Annie Yau
WOWOWOW WOULD I SPEND MY TIME WRTING AN ANALYSIS FOR YOU JUST TO SAY IT WAS ME?! YOU'RE A HOPELESS ROMANTIC HAHAHA NO CHANCE 1,2,3,5 DO NOT WORK FOR ME HAHA
51 shots o' rum ago
Kelsey Chang
BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME AND YOU'RE MY STALKER WHO POSTED THAT QUESTION ON MY FORMSPRING, OKAY?!?!
49 shots o' rum ago
Annie Yau
YOU CRAZZYYYY GIRL! NUH-UH. I PROMISED. AND MY PROMISES DON'T COME EASILY. WHY DON'T YOU JUST TAKE MY ANALYSIS AND START SEARCHING SOMEWHERE ELSE LOL
42 shots o' rum ago
Kelsey Chang
CUZ YOU'RE IN MATH ANALYSIS AND NOT KELSEY'S-FORMSPRING-ANALYSIS! HA!
41 shots o' rum ago
hehe this cracked me up
annie, you can't tell her.
seriously this is the only way I can interact with her normally
without feeling wound up
through this weird formspring thing lool
I love it. (:
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
it's been two weeks and three days.
am I really that horrible of a person?
here's something she said to me once
"Well, guess what, buddy? I'm here to tell you: ZOMG, YOU'RE STUPID! A FAILURE! ... FREAKING DUMMY! IF YOU WANT TO GET BACK @ HER, HAVE A FREAKING GOOD TIME AND IGNORE HER!"
I think I'll follow her advice. but it's hard to do. How can I ignore her? :(
trying to have a good time though.
I've been flipping a coin most times I see her
tails, I wait
heads, I talk
it's always been tails the first time I flip it
so I think I'll wait. I hope it's not for too long though.
tell you what though. you are most definitely not going to get away with this.
when we do talk,
one of our first conversations is going to be about this entire situation.
and what we could've both done to avoid it in the first place.
I gotta admit, it's mostly my fault. in fact, it may be entirely my fault.
but I think there are better ways of dealing with this than the route you chose to take.
so you've hurt me. you don't understand how much hurt I felt the first couple days.
I'm alright now though, thanks for asking.
I forgive you, because I love you - you're my friend, after all.
and love keeps no record of wrongs; it never fails.
hope all is well in your life! take care.
may you accomplish at whatever you put your mind to.
am I really that horrible of a person?
here's something she said to me once
"Well, guess what, buddy? I'm here to tell you: ZOMG, YOU'RE STUPID! A FAILURE! ... FREAKING DUMMY! IF YOU WANT TO GET BACK @ HER, HAVE A FREAKING GOOD TIME AND IGNORE HER!"
I think I'll follow her advice. but it's hard to do. How can I ignore her? :(
trying to have a good time though.
I've been flipping a coin most times I see her
tails, I wait
heads, I talk
it's always been tails the first time I flip it
so I think I'll wait. I hope it's not for too long though.
tell you what though. you are most definitely not going to get away with this.
when we do talk,
one of our first conversations is going to be about this entire situation.
and what we could've both done to avoid it in the first place.
I gotta admit, it's mostly my fault. in fact, it may be entirely my fault.
but I think there are better ways of dealing with this than the route you chose to take.
so you've hurt me. you don't understand how much hurt I felt the first couple days.
I'm alright now though, thanks for asking.
I forgive you, because I love you - you're my friend, after all.
and love keeps no record of wrongs; it never fails.
hope all is well in your life! take care.
may you accomplish at whatever you put your mind to.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
"What is a friend? I will tell you. It is a person with whom you dare to be yourself. Your soul can be naked with him. He seems to ask of you to put on nothing, only to be what you are. He does not want you to be better or worse. When you are with him, you feel as a prisoner feels who has been declared innocent. You do not have to be on your guard. You can say what you think, so long as it is genuinely you. He understands those contradictions in your nature that lead others to misjudge you. With him you breathe freely. You can avow your little vanities and envies and hates and vicious sparks, your meannesses and absurdities and, in opening them up to him, they are lost, dissolved on the white ocean of his loyalty. He understands. You do not have to be careful. You can abuse him, neglect him, tolerate him. Best of all, you can keep still with him. It makes no matter. He likes you. He is like fire that purges to the bone. He understands. You can weep with him, sin with him, laugh with him, pray with him. Through it all - and underneath - he sees, knows and loves you.
A friend? What is a friend?
Just one, I repeat, with whom you dare to be yourself."
-C. Raymond Beran
A friend? What is a friend?
Just one, I repeat, with whom you dare to be yourself."
-C. Raymond Beran
Thursday, January 14, 2010
warring nations
Anxious, ambivalent, abject,
I pace back and forth.
Reality has trapped me
Leaving no way out
Stuck at the crossroads,
Nowhere to go
Both sides angry
Both sides hurt
What to do?
I am a neutral between two warring nations
It is impossible to please both
But impossible not to try.
One side will win
One side will lose
Either way
I will lose too.
I pace back and forth.
Reality has trapped me
Leaving no way out
Stuck at the crossroads,
Nowhere to go
Both sides angry
Both sides hurt
What to do?
I am a neutral between two warring nations
It is impossible to please both
But impossible not to try.
One side will win
One side will lose
Either way
I will lose too.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Saturday, January 9, 2010
oh and
this is what I would write if I wrote a letter to kels.
but I won't, so I'll put it up here.
Dear Kels,
I count myself as lucky to have you as one of my close friends - even though we don't talk much, or share much in common, I'd like to think that we're still pretty close. But you know, is there something up between us? I'm really confused right now. It seems to me as if you just suddenly closed off yourself from me! The first day, I told myself, okay maybe it's just a little thing. Maybe she's just moody. It'll pass. I'll just back off for now and give her space. But then, we continued to not speak to each other and it's got me wondering. Kels, what's up? The fact that you haven't said a word to me about how I've offended you, or why you suddenly stopped talking to me - it hurts. To me, that says that you don't really care about our friendship as of now. And I think that's what hurts the most. I'm really sorry for whatever I've done to offend you or to hurt you, and I can promise you that I never did what I did with the intention to hurt or offend. Thank you for being my friend, for standing there by me in troubled times. It means a lot to me. I really do love you, you know (no homo!) So I hope you decide to talk to me again soon. I'd like to talk this out as well. Letters are nice and all, but face-to-face conversations get the job done.
Your friend,
Emily Yang
there's zero chance that she'll see this
and you're not gonna come here and read this unless I told you that I blogged!
that's you, isabel.
and you, michellechang (:
I love you guys
thanks for listening to me feel sorry for myself
hehehhe
this is what I would write if I wrote a letter to kels.
but I won't, so I'll put it up here.
Dear Kels,
I count myself as lucky to have you as one of my close friends - even though we don't talk much, or share much in common, I'd like to think that we're still pretty close. But you know, is there something up between us? I'm really confused right now. It seems to me as if you just suddenly closed off yourself from me! The first day, I told myself, okay maybe it's just a little thing. Maybe she's just moody. It'll pass. I'll just back off for now and give her space. But then, we continued to not speak to each other and it's got me wondering. Kels, what's up? The fact that you haven't said a word to me about how I've offended you, or why you suddenly stopped talking to me - it hurts. To me, that says that you don't really care about our friendship as of now. And I think that's what hurts the most. I'm really sorry for whatever I've done to offend you or to hurt you, and I can promise you that I never did what I did with the intention to hurt or offend. Thank you for being my friend, for standing there by me in troubled times. It means a lot to me. I really do love you, you know (no homo!) So I hope you decide to talk to me again soon. I'd like to talk this out as well. Letters are nice and all, but face-to-face conversations get the job done.
Your friend,
Emily Yang
there's zero chance that she'll see this
and you're not gonna come here and read this unless I told you that I blogged!
that's you, isabel.
and you, michellechang (:
I love you guys
thanks for listening to me feel sorry for myself
hehehhe
so this last week, it's been pretty hectic.
just finished winter break
and the drama is starting up all over again.
here's what's happening (since no one reads this anyways, I might as well just lay down all the names and stuff...)
and you don't have to read all of this
it's mostly for me, to get all of my thoughts organized and out of the way.
so blaah monday/tuesday it's pretty normal.
wednesday is where everything starts changing. so me and kels, we have barry homeroom together right? usually when class ends
the person who finishes packing up first waits for the other.
then we hit up my locker, then walk to her locker. it's routine. we've done this everyday for the school year so far. but that day she doesn't wait! I don't think anything of it. maybe she was in a rush or something.
but that whole day she was kind of out of it.
so come night, I'm at home, she's online and I say hey there! you alright? you seemed kind of out of it today.
no response. oh well. she does that to me.
thursday is when ignoring starts. as in, okay it's unavoidable for me and you to cross paths but I'm just not going to talk to you. so even though we have spanish and basketball and so many mutual friends she just doesn't talk to me! okay kels. that's real nice.
but, I figure, maybe she's just annoyed at me for whatever. one day thing. let it go.
I'll just back off for the time being and give her space.
I do resolve a friendship that day though (:
practice was especially bad cause I kept failing so I ran a country afterwards (and when I was finishing, heading back towards the girls' locker room, I ran right past her and she didn't say anything! well neither did I, but that's beside the point.)
so anyways. I'm heading to my locker, and I bump into ellie! strike up a conversation
we get to talking
and I apologize to her
thoughts are exchanged
and I think our friendship is all good now. (after 2 years of inactivity.. it started deteriorating faculty follies '07, didn't talk to her 08-09)
friday! still the silent treatment from kels.
I don't think she entirely hates me though... I volunteered to do an on the spot rendition of beauty and the beast in spanish, and messed up horribly. she laughed along with the rest of the class.
so I get to talking with jessliu while her and annie head off to spanish ec.
talk about jesus club, then I tell her about my kelsey situation.
she tells me that she'd talked to kels about how she felt kels was stealing her friends
and tells me about how she felt about me
when I left her for kelsey as well, even when she had warned me beforehand that this might happen
and I'd responded by saying hell no! I'd never leave you for this person. but I did
and you know what makes me feel like a douchebag is the fact that I caught myself drifting from jess
I remembered that she'd specifically told me about kelsey the thief
but I went along and hung out with annie and kels anyways, leaving jess behind.
well. I apologize. she tells me she forgives me.
and we're good, I think.
but kelsey and me. eh,
I'm just too cowardly to talk to her about what I feel right now.
what do I feel?
I feel hurt, upset, mad. but mostly hurt
because she's not even telling me what's up so that I can change that aspect of myself
which is pretty much saying, dude I don't want to be friends with you anymore at all cause I don't like this about you but I'm not gonna make an effort to repair it but telling you the problem.
I had opportunities on friday, and today before our game got cancelled
but I didn't seize them.
I did, however, facebook-chat her saying that we needed to talk sometime but I wanted to do it in person.
anyways that's my situation for now
I hope it gets better.
when I play piano, it's easy to tell how I'm feeling from an outside perspective.
your soul can't lie through the music.
just finished winter break
and the drama is starting up all over again.
here's what's happening (since no one reads this anyways, I might as well just lay down all the names and stuff...)
and you don't have to read all of this
it's mostly for me, to get all of my thoughts organized and out of the way.
so blaah monday/tuesday it's pretty normal.
wednesday is where everything starts changing. so me and kels, we have barry homeroom together right? usually when class ends
the person who finishes packing up first waits for the other.
then we hit up my locker, then walk to her locker. it's routine. we've done this everyday for the school year so far. but that day she doesn't wait! I don't think anything of it. maybe she was in a rush or something.
but that whole day she was kind of out of it.
so come night, I'm at home, she's online and I say hey there! you alright? you seemed kind of out of it today.
no response. oh well. she does that to me.
thursday is when ignoring starts. as in, okay it's unavoidable for me and you to cross paths but I'm just not going to talk to you. so even though we have spanish and basketball and so many mutual friends she just doesn't talk to me! okay kels. that's real nice.
but, I figure, maybe she's just annoyed at me for whatever. one day thing. let it go.
I'll just back off for the time being and give her space.
I do resolve a friendship that day though (:
practice was especially bad cause I kept failing so I ran a country afterwards (and when I was finishing, heading back towards the girls' locker room, I ran right past her and she didn't say anything! well neither did I, but that's beside the point.)
so anyways. I'm heading to my locker, and I bump into ellie! strike up a conversation
we get to talking
and I apologize to her
thoughts are exchanged
and I think our friendship is all good now. (after 2 years of inactivity.. it started deteriorating faculty follies '07, didn't talk to her 08-09)
friday! still the silent treatment from kels.
I don't think she entirely hates me though... I volunteered to do an on the spot rendition of beauty and the beast in spanish, and messed up horribly. she laughed along with the rest of the class.
so I get to talking with jessliu while her and annie head off to spanish ec.
talk about jesus club, then I tell her about my kelsey situation.
she tells me that she'd talked to kels about how she felt kels was stealing her friends
and tells me about how she felt about me
when I left her for kelsey as well, even when she had warned me beforehand that this might happen
and I'd responded by saying hell no! I'd never leave you for this person. but I did
and you know what makes me feel like a douchebag is the fact that I caught myself drifting from jess
I remembered that she'd specifically told me about kelsey the thief
but I went along and hung out with annie and kels anyways, leaving jess behind.
well. I apologize. she tells me she forgives me.
and we're good, I think.
but kelsey and me. eh,
I'm just too cowardly to talk to her about what I feel right now.
what do I feel?
I feel hurt, upset, mad. but mostly hurt
because she's not even telling me what's up so that I can change that aspect of myself
which is pretty much saying, dude I don't want to be friends with you anymore at all cause I don't like this about you but I'm not gonna make an effort to repair it but telling you the problem.
I had opportunities on friday, and today before our game got cancelled
but I didn't seize them.
I did, however, facebook-chat her saying that we needed to talk sometime but I wanted to do it in person.
anyways that's my situation for now
I hope it gets better.
when I play piano, it's easy to tell how I'm feeling from an outside perspective.
your soul can't lie through the music.
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