today was just such a good day,
tomorrow is going to be horrible to make up for its goodness (:

shoot, 99.5 on brice test.
99.5
ninety nine and a half
I am so satisfied with myself
now I just gotta keep this status quo
and work my butt off (:

worked on basketball stuff with emliang and annyau
love those girls <3

rebellion

it's been a couple of weeks since I last posted.
school's been pretty hectic, I guess.
what with all these tests, and jessica's birthday, and asjkdfl;akj
it's just so...consuming.

I told myself I wasn't going to blog until I found a new skin
cause I don't like my skin anymore
but I feel so eh. empty? w/o blogging :D
blogging is a stress reliever for me
I feel that by writing down what I'm going through,
I come to new realizations as I'm forced to process through my situations and put them down in words.
you guys should try it sometime.
and if you're that paranoid about who reads your stuff, just close it off
it's fine! I think it just really helps though.

lately, I've been thinking so strangely
about. the clouds. HAHA jk
I love that song though. but I have been thinking,
and talking to various people about what I think
I'm really inconclusive though. I'll just ponder upon something for forever and a day,
and still not come up with a plan of action.
and I have a really hard time letting go of relationships (not love bf/gf kind, looool. just friends)
I'll get it into my mind that you! you're cool. you're nice. I like you. I think you're pretty chill with me. you're going to be my new close friend.
but I don't factor in everything else and...
it just goes nowhere. I don't take into account that perhaps, your friend really hates me and you're closer to this other person than you are to me. you'll tend to listen to your friend more than to me, and as a result you'll hate me in the end.
I kind of just skip over that part in my head.

see cause, my brain likes to forget the nasty parts of life.
I don't like being hurt.
after all, who does? :D

Baillie Essay

1. Evaluate a significant experience, achievement, risk you have taken, or ethical dilemma you ahve faced and its impact on you.

here's my essay:

UGH. I WAS GOING TO POST IT.
BUT WORD 07 IS HORRIBLE.
I HATE CODING.

anyways if you want to read it ask me and I'll send it to you haha.
[this part I'm not putting on, but here's what I wanted to say:
To this day, I'm still not on speaking terms with Barbara.]

anyways for you guys that don't know me as well as others,
this took place last year in november-ish.
pretty much, deborah wanted to kick me out of their DC room.
it upset me.
hence, the conversation.
if you're interested you can look in my archives for more details haha.

Who am I?

I was asking myself that question the other day (or actually the last couple days),
and I think I came up with an answer.

I think that I...
-enjoy smiling a lot. a lot a lot (:
-like to see other people happy and being themselves.
-talk quite a bit. and ask lots of questions. sorry pauline!
-can still enjoy a moment of silence.
-deal with things that are bothering me right away. if I don't, I can't stop thinking about it.
-am pretty downright sarcastic.
-get annoyed really easily. could be anything! sorry bout that.
-hate being late. hate hate hate HATE.
-have many pet peeves. among which include: hyper people, singing to my piano playing, complaining too much, etc etc.
-constantly think about what people are thinking about me.
-still tend to make hasty judgements.
-judge based on first impressions. 75% of the time, they're correct.
-really like to help other people! like explain problems or teach stuff.
-will not talk to people that I think look mean. they give off a certain vibe.
-love being part of something larger than myself!

there's probably more, but that's all for now. (:

FRESHMAN START.

gee, I'm starting to get slightly freaked out.
everything is so damn ACCELERATED. it's crazy.

the only classes I like (friend-wise) are band, barry, brice.
all the other classes.
they're people I don't really talk to. and they're people I'm not all that interested in making friends with.
damn it ailien get your schedule change >:[
...but even if she got a schedule change, I'd only have a maximum of 2 academic classes with her.
but it's better than nothing I guess.
I think I'll end up talking to sophia more though, cause I'm guessing for barry she'll end up sitting next to me
and I have bio with her too.

I'm nervous for tomorrow.
wish me luck!

I have a pretty short list of things that I just won't tolerate,
but first and foremost is:

1. DON'T MESS WITH MY STUFF.
For example, my Verrett notebooks. that I spent 123489023 hours copying over so that it looks very nice. So let's say, I left it sitting on a table. I come back, and there's coffee spilt all over it. I will be SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER pissed off like you've never seen before. And if no one steps up to take the blame? Shoot, EVERYONE around me is going to suffer from my bad mood for at least that day, perhaps even lasting for longer than that.
But see here, say if you're the one who messed up my notebook. At this point, how pissed off I am depends on
A. How close you are to me.
and
B. Did you step up and claim responsibility?
If you're someone I'm not particularly close to and didn't claim responsibility for it. YOu are so screwed. I don't care whether we're at school or not, I'll jump on you and start beating you up. or at least attempt to.

Because nothing pisses me off more than when I pour all this effort into making something look nice and pretty (and for those of you that know what a perfectionist I am, I spend at least a couple hours into doing this kind of stuff) and some bozo comes along and ruins it in a split second, disregarding all the painstaking ti me and care that I put into it.

And so, the reason for this pretty downright negative post?
I left my newly decorated planner sitting on the table, and some effing idiot put an icepack on top of it sometime last night. Despite the double layers of plastic protecting it, melted water somehow managed to seep through and cause serious water damage to my pictures. Serious to me might mean next to nothing to you, but bear with me. This is my touchy point here.
Seriously, WTF man. To top it off, both my parents swear they didn't do it.
I don't believe them.
I want payback >:[

EFFFFFF I feel so stupid.

my friend got me a jane lui autograph
and I left it at church. D:

EFF EFF EFF
AJSDFL;ASKFJASLFJDASKLFJ.
I feel horrible D:

445!

I feel like I should start keeping track of who I don't have any classes with.
because seriously, there's a LOT of people.
excluding band and athletics, of course. you only count for band if
A. You're a bass clarinet.
or
B. You're a close friend [in this case, it means I will go out of my way to talk to you even though you're not in my section] :D

so here's a list of people in alphabetical order:

Ada Hui
Adrian ?
Aileen Guillen
Albert Kuan
Alice Lee
Alijah Rivera
Alison Lee
Amy Kim
Angela Wan
Anjli Shah
Anthony Semaan
Ashley Tang
Binny Singh
Celine Phong
Charles Xue
Cindy Kim
Daniel Olea
Daniel Shim
Daniel Tai
David Awada
Deborah Park
Edgar Aguilar
Elizabeth Lee
Emmerline Kim
Ethan Chen
Eugenia Jacobs
Eunice Lee
Fernando Jacinto
Greg Chung
Halah Elsahar
Howard Liu
Hylie Jeffries
James Kim
Janelle Lee
Jasmine Ham
Jenny Kouch
Joo Lee
Joyce Le
Joyce Shin
Juhee Shah
Julia Chanco
Kasie Le
Kevin Chen
Kevin Tang
Kevin Tolentino
Kira Ito
Kristen Plalma
Krystal Zamarrippa
Krystle Tham
Lauren De Belen
Linda Chun
Louis Manuel
May Luong
Michael Ishida
Michael Ngo
Michelle Yoshimoto
Nathan Ibarbol
Nikki Shah
Rahul Nachnani
Rita Labib
Rish Shah
Saatchi Patell
Sabrina Velasco
Sanghee Cha
Sangita Rajan
Sarah Bui
Sathya Peri
Sean Oh
Shannon Wang
Sharon Park
Sofia Dhanani
So Young Park
Stella Park
Tanya Chellani
Temujin Alvarez
Victor Dang
Vignesh Iyer
Zachary Rank

I'll update this list as I figure out more people who fulfill these requirements.
but gee, this is what I get for taking all those hard classes XD
I like it.

THIS LIST IS RIDICULOUSLY LONG. I hate it.

prayers answered :D

dude,
God is out there listening to my prayers.
cause I REFUSE to believe that this is all a coincidence.

1. I ask for a bass clarinet buddy: I get ailien!

2. I ask for deborah not to suck her away: deborah dropped out of band.

3. I asked for a friend that I can relate to: I get ailien; a christian bass clarinetist. who is pretty darn happy most all the time and is kind of nerdy too(well I think so anyways), like me :D

4. In my schedule, I got Barry homeroom. I asked for people (katti specifically) to be in my class! cause I don't want to suffer alone: Katti's in my period, along with ashley morris and a couple other nice people that I talk to (:

hell, this can't be all a coincidence.
it's too good to be true.
AND there's a lot of people I didn't want classes with that I don't have any classes with (:
life is great !

oh and my schedule is

1 - Marching Band/England
2 - English I/Baillie
3 - Spanish II/Barry
4 - Biology H/Perry
5 - Alg II Trig. H/Brice
6 - Modern World History/Collins
7 - Athletics + Basketball G

for those of you who delight in stalking others ;D

had a good day today!
wrapped all my books and they're looking fabulous.
volunteered in the library!
got my knuckle hairs threaded hehehe (:

pick-up day!

well since I'm up and about at 7:40 this morning,
thought I'd post something since I'd like to follow my schedule which involved me getting up at 8:30 and taking a shower.
so I have 20 minutes of free time right now ahahha.
I'm a very planned out person, yes I know.

band camp is KILLING me.
we stood around and practiced for two hours yesterday
my feet were freaking sore, and so is my right arm. damn it! >:[
one arm is gonna be hell of a lot buffer than the other lol
I can't march for beans. and to top it off, me and these two other seniors got stuck in the front row by ourselves cause the our rank got messed up.
gee, put us in the back please.
and in the middle I got my left and right mixed up again haha.
but still, I really enjoy being part of something larger than myself.
that's my favorite part about band.
I enjoy that marching does require a certain level of discipline, and I just hope that I'm up to it!
and actually my favorite favorite part is when we all come to attention and yell
PRIDE.
it echoes. (:

yesterday at band camp I made a new friend though!
ailien nguyenly.
hehehee. I remember seeing her standing in the block wearing her carmenita shirt.
and I was thinking, new kid! oooooh she looks nice. eheh.
and then later when we grouped up by section she joined us bass clarinets right?
and we all went around / introduced ourselves.
so when she said ailien I was like I KNOW YOU. NGUYENLY.
and after a while she said, emily yang? :D

it's seriously an answer to my prayer though,
because I was just talking to katti or someone the other day about how I really need a bass clarinet buddy cause you know me and deborah,
we don't really get along all too well.
I'm kind of scared that deborah will steal ailien away though cause...
ailien's already friends with alice. and she knows deborah from swim.
I'm really scared she'll get sucked into their clique.
but! as for now, I hope that doesn't happen.
and I hope me and ailien stay friends.
:]