while waiting for my momma to return from the dentist to take me to the library,
I decided to blog a little cause
I'M DONE WITH CM YES YES YES
oh yeaaaaah baby!
but I only get a week of break from piano before I have to start preparing for panel
and this year, I'm going to take piano really seriously.
it is going to be my number one priority.
but this means I have to put more thought into my song choice
and pick songs I really like so I can put up with playing them for an entire year
and songs that I can actually master.

so I messed up pretty badly a couple times in my polonaise
but it's all good, cause the teacher still liked me
she talked to me afterwards and stuff
and as the door monitor was walking me out,
she told me that's how you can tell the judge likes you when they talk to you lots!
my door monitor told me she liked my polonaise (:
which is, really, my worst and least favorite song.
sorry mary (:
I think my ankle got my pity points with the judge btw hehe

142/149 on theory!
exemption, here I come :D

so I can walk now (albeit with an ankle brace and the use of a cane)
and let me tell you, you don't fully appreciate things until you no longer have them
seriously.

looking forward to this quarter!
fresh start <3

so yesterday,
I went to towne center from whitney.
to hang out with my oh so lovely jv basketball team
on foot. on my crutches

anything you can do, I can do better
oh yeeeah!

but today
I am suffering the consequences of my rash decision haha.
I have a pretty ugly friction sore whatever thing
on my back/side under my armpits
and two lumps on the insides of my upper arm
(it looks like muscle maybe, and I wish it was, but it's not lol)
and my back is AJSKD;LFKJASJKFSA
yes. I fell off the couch
and was immobilized
and could not get up hahaha
it's okay
it was worth it
I had fun (:
reading those retarded signs and horrible translations lmao
it's all going to be worth it!
I'm going to have some mad upper body strength after this oh yesssss.

anyways,
thank you annie yau
you are a good friend. and you don't read this so I'll rewrite this for your yearbook or birthday card way later or whatever hehe
but, thank you for sticking by me
and going the long way around to towne center instead of cutting across artesia
like amy kelsey priyanka etc. did
(you too, lauren!)
makes me feel appreciative
and loved <3

so here's for a superficial blog post
HAHAHHA LEAGUE CHAMPS FTW
OH YEAH OH YEAH
even though I've probably scored less than 10 points total this entire season
and linda scores like 20 points a game
who cares! :D
LEAGUE CHAMPS OH YEAH OH YEAH
I didn't even play in this last game
cause I busted up my ankle playing oxford two days before
so I kept score.
and screamed from my position behind the ref's table
(them refs were real biased, btw)

anyways, kels, you're being way too harsh on yourself.
suck it up
get rid of that mentality that I failed. I made a mistake.
I'm a horrible player.
because you're not!
so what if you made a mistake
you're overreacting. stop it.
we love you, you know that.
don't let this get you down, alright?
and even if you are, we're here to lift you back up<3

so I'm sorry if I'm a bit more irritable than usual as of late
this wholeentire CM piano madness is finally getting to me
I'm testing in two weeks
and am starting to freak out
but the more my mom nags at me to practice piano the more I don't want to
so it's a lose-lose situation.
those are never good :(

anyways, if I snap at you or anything
it's probably nothing personal
my nerves are just wound up really tight
and I can't take much more of this.
hang in there, emily.
you got this.
just two more weeks.

thanks for the pep talk guys
if you see me around, please give me a hug
I'd appreciate it
touches soothe me hehe yeah I know I'm weird
kthanksbye :)