smile!

You know,

I think my AIM sn really suits me (SM1LEplz)

Because every time I go online to talk to people, whether it be through AIM or Yahoo! or Facebook,

inevitably I'll start smiling.

It doesn't matter that they can't see me through the computer screen,

or that I can't see them.

I'm just so happy to be able to talk and 聊天 with my homies, I really just start smiling :)

When I type HAHAHAHA, I'm actually laughing... or at least crack a grin.

No joke.

Today, my cousin was all like dude why are you smiling. stop it.

My dad is always like that too.... he says, 妳怎麼有再笑了？！為甚麼在笑？

..It irritates me to no end

But really, I just can't help it. It's weird.

I think I just love you guys too much <3

to share or not to share?

Just checking out my blog to make everything looks as it should,

Looked at archives... WOW 249 POSTS IN 2008? Hahahaha unrealll.

And then 27 posts in 2010. Kind of sad :)

Maybe I'll start blogging again on a regular basis. It feels good to have something stable in my life, anyways.

I was just reading over some of my friends' blogs, catching up on their lives

I haven't talked to them for awhile and stuff, so yeah. Kind of stalker-ish but whatever! :)

I realized that the times I feel most upset/難過 are when my friends are going through tough times and really, I can't do anything to help or comfort them.

I just feel so useless, you know? It's a horrible feeling.

But at the same time, I would rather know what's going on with them than be deceived by their smiling appearance into thinking that everything's alright

I mean, if you just leave problems to fester there nothing will ever get resolved, and I personally believe problems are best dealt with not by yourself, but with others around you to encourage and to help you look at your situation from different angles to find the best solution.

Others may not want to share their problems, feeling that they're personal issues, but I just think hey, if you're my friend, I trust that if I tell you about this hard time I'm going through right now you're gonna be there to support me - why shouldn't I turn to you for help?

Okay I don't really know if that makes sense.

It looked better in my head ;)

this post goes out to 謝巧安

so I was just browsing through my friend's blog

and her birthday was recently so I looked at that post, right?

WOW SHE GETS SO MANY CARDS.

WHY DON'T YOU GUYS GIVE ME THAT MANY D:

I was hella jealous of her, yo! hahhaha

look look look

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/ellen0605/570966

her friends freaking punked her on her birthday too

EPIC. but I would not want to be tricked like that

if you can read the chinese, it really is pretty damn epic.

it's been a while since I've last blogged

a severe lack of internet for the past two weeks hasn't helped any either

so, we've just gotten off of missions and...

I hella miss team b + locals already.

I miss ellen. and jackie and jojo, cathy and godwin, judy and jane, rachel, kelly, jessica, and everyone else.

it's tough being pulled away from the people that you've just spent every waking moment of the past two weeks with.

you just get so close with them, so this cold turkey separation is like WAH I MISS YOU PLEASE COME BACK.

it sucks.

but I know I'll be fine,

so after this brief bout of misery I'll be back to myself again, no worries!

I'm glad that I didn't cry in front of everyone though just to spare myself the humiliation :)

I'll just cry in my heart, hoho.