YAHHHHH

star testing's over! finally
though it was pretty good, I guess
time to bond with like alice/allison and them
dodgeball yesterday was freaking fun XD
collins & park played with us.
and iono. it was just fun! chasing after alice/so young and trying to hit them (:
and umm today.
ME AND JOAN HAVE NICKNAMES.
she's "rake gutter"
and I'm "halfway orangepeel"
gutter and orangepeel for short.
it was gonna be cracked gatorade cap. but I put my foot down there.
it was cause like
for track we're doing shotput right?
so when you roll the ball back
we pretended we were bowling (:
she always rolled gutter balls
and I never got it all the way back to joan..
hence, "halfway."
but yeah. pretty fun! got my throw up to 17'4", but still need to get better..
grr-umph.
afterwards went to international day practice for c/o 2012
watched them do fans and stuff (:
pauline is crazy good man! and emily is just weird. with her jacket on backwards O_o
jessicapark was the best for latino dance.
and I think steph was probably the best for indian.
african dance was hanjoo/brendan.
and chinese is, well, no DUH. pauline XD
yeah. your guys' stuff is okay! I liked the african dance (:
where noel got kicked in the head.
HAHAHAHA.
oooh and! charleen and crislyn got asked to social by kevinzosa and sagarkhalani??
yeah. weird.
can't believe crislyn said yes.. then I ran home
and so now I'm freaking sore. from shotput and whatnot.

"i'm hoping i can get to know her too. because i want to be able to go up to her and tell her some random thing. and not have to feel like i'm acting so fakely just to cover up awkwardness. like i want to be able to not have to think of some random story to tell all the time. and she's such a good person, and i wish we could be friends so badly. and like. definitely not to say anything about her because i know other people are like this, but to not try to be good friends with someone just because you don't right away click is like everyone who's like that doing exactly what they think we do, when honestly, we don't."
quoted from marissa, who was quoted by josh, who was quoted to me by izzy (:
SEE
that's exactly how I feel about _______
now do you get it?
except I'm getting ignored. STILL.
gah. it's driving me mad.

DDR

is so fun.
especially at night
when it's like 80+ degrees outside
and you sweat your butt off. (:
but yeah. it was kevin's birthday today!
happy birthday!
so we were partying at my house after they went to dinner
pretty fun
I mess around with izzy a bit (:
and then. okay I haven't posted for a while.
almost a week =/
ugh I'm getting bad at this
but I've been working out! so my muscles are looking pretty cooooool (:
and umm. hmm. nothing really inneresing this week
just splattering for the I <3 NY! poster (:
where it got in my eye. so I looked like a clown. eheh.
and bonded with emilyliang/jess a bit, so that was cool.
and g2g and stuff, which went pretty good. dance team was pretty good man
joshteng was AWESOME.
yeah. and today was just sitting around all day
putting faces in my naruto picture for art class
and reading manga, and DDR. YEAH.
and coffee and cakeand yeah. fun stuff.
and sparkly candles that give out ashes (:
and now next week is star testing! fun stuff.
ohh and walking home alone SUCKS.
especially when your zune breaks, and you have no music, and you ahve a 7-pound laptop, 5-pound backpack, 2-pound clothes. pretty heavy.
and then you sweat and it's like eww.
yeah. (:

OH AND.
I was racing hanjoo on thursday (:
for mile first lap
so we were like semi-sprinting half of it
and it felt good XD
so I was trying to beat her
and we were arguing about who was making the other run fast (:
hanjoo's actually pretty cool, man.
and then like casue of her I made it under 2:30 and got the second lap off ^^
hehe. thanks, hannah!

hmph.

bad dream yesterday.
woke up crying D:
it was pretty bad.
anyways!
today was pretty okay
satisfied with new seat in park
like I'm sitting on the side
so it's like...
okay from the side.
niki me sean
ellin temujin sathwick
pretty good.
cept temujin never talks.
so it's kinda frustrating =/
hmm rest of day was like
okay
only got 29/31 on science test though - -xx
could've done better!
but nooo. the instructions
weren't clear. sigh.
band we got new song! yeah! and I played the melody right! yeah!
amidst everyone else who was NOT playing it right (:
pe was hmmm. got to bat finally. sheila/anita aren't here, so I'm kinda acting as team captain (:
lunch..went to guatanamo bay debate. interesting.
jensen! sub! listen to music and do hwk (:
finish early, then go to sharpen pencil and help emilyliu
also chat with steph for a little.
steal alice's ipod back from james
HAHA quinxiao? niceee.
collins is bleh like always. finish most of my hwk.
then track!
orchestra people were gone. which is like half of the team..
but today was pretty fun
learned how to run "correctly"
then ran about 325 m timed
- -xx I'm slow
68 seconds...sigh. whatever. I'm gonna be dead tmrw for the mile :D
afterwards just talked and stuff.
leo is so funny omgsh (:
"the moral of the story is....be the big black dude." LMAO :D
so many stories. so we ended up staying until like 3:45
haha me and joan ALMOST got away with switching names.
ALMOST. (:

OH OH OH AND
omgsh so young and her grass covered legs :)
and cerritos high's wind symphony is really good.
no joke. but I betcha
our wind ensemble is better (;

hey hey you you.

I like to think I played a part
in making you the amazing person you have become.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YVONNE! :D

one more year until you can drink (;
and be a happy drunk.
thanks for being the yvonne in my life.
for giving me someone to poke, and to poke me.
and thank you for being my coffee in the morning.
both literally and in a nonliteral way (;
enjoy being twenty!

http://www.eastoftheweb.com/short-stories/UBooks/DeatScra.shtml
story of the day.
funny, but scary (:

new love in my life!
the ground.
see cause.
we were high jumping practice right?
haha bad sentence.
so it's for track
and so I jumped and I rolled off the mat!
fell two feet to the floor
like falling off your bed.
ouch.
then. I got up. started to run
lost my balance.
fell again.
man, I just can't keep myself off of the blacktop :)
gotta hug it at all times.
yeah. track is fun :D

field events!

high jump is unbelievably fun.
I think I'll try it :)
and. shotput tmrw.
whoopie!

you know, I think I have this superpower.

it's called.
the power to
become intangible,
unheard,
unseen.
turned on only at some points of the day.
and only affecting one person.

dreams. again :)

happy dream this time!
iono. me and pauline were walking around
and talking. and she was like.
yeah. you were in my dream. we were racing
and then like I ran off somewhere else and there was like a bunch of eighth graders at my house.
oooohhhhh kay pauline.
and another of her dreams:
I HAD A DREAM. WHITNEY WAS IN A GHETTO DISTRICT.
but we were the only fancy building around and and
I forgot (:
I like your dreams pauline! they're very happy. unlike mine.
anyways got comp stuff back.
..not as good as I wanted
but still pretty good, yeah?
getting beat bad in jensen/collins - -xx
I hate being second. WHO THE HECK HAS 99.4 IN ALGEBRA I HONORS. nerdddd. even more than me.
got beat by charles again in collins. *sigh*. might as well give up now
after school"!

track! track! trackkk.!

yeahhhh. but only aileen did it with me as a scrub girl.
and so young I guess. and ada, but she doesn't really count..
she's freaking weird that way. sucks at sports, but does them anyways.
*sigh* whatever. track is individual competition!
I am not gonna talk to her whatsoever this season.
gonna be chillin' with my mom all the way, mann :)
..yeah. that's my day.
oh and! three days. I should get cracking. seriously, now.

party!

hung out with church people today ^^
first time in a long time outside of church
went bowling
DUDE
my shoes were velcro - -xx. cause they were size 4.
which is apparently "kiddy"
I suck at bowling XD
even with the bumpers. so I didn't play a second game
talked with sylvia about teachers and stuff instead :)
later we go to the mall
walk around I guess. I hate shopping :)
then bj's! tried to teach olivia drinking game
but she kept screwing up - -xx
sat with the fobs, so talked chinese like the WHOLE night
watched baseball on TV! red sox vs. yankees
very cooooooool. ate four large pizzas between the eight of us
..which is pretty crazy. but six guys. whaddya expect?
yeah. shared a bunch of lame jokes
only understood in chinese (;

happy birthday yvonne! alan! kevin!
yessirreee :)

freakk.

it's four in the morning.
and I can't sleep,
and joyson's funeral is in six hours.
and I have a sudden urge to play piano,
even though it's gonna wake people up.
should I.?

nightmares.

okay. seriously, this is a nightmare
that only people like me can have =

failing a comp.

interesting, yes? anyways.
I was sleeping and dreaming.
like everyone does.
when suddenly in my dream
I was sitting in castro's class!
(weirdd; cause I'm in collins)
and then! we were all testing
it was the last comp of the last day
and then the test questions were WEIRD
AND I DIDN'T KNOW THE ANSWER!!!!
and I kept on numbering the answers wrong and and and
I couldn't find the short response questions.
it freaked me out big time.
what was scarier was that
mrs. clayton was there!! (sixth grade teacher)
and she was cheering me on? O_o
and then the bell rang for the end of the comp
and everyone ran out
and I was stuck there. cause I wasn't done.
and mrs. clayton was still there! which freaked me out again.
and then I remembered in my dreaming
that I already took my history comp (:
so why was I taking it in my dream?
and then I woke up.
one of the scariest dreams I've ever had (;

ramen party!

very cool,
very waste of time.
getting punched in the eye hurts.
but not enough to get a bruise.
kickball without shoes is fun too (:
my aunt's here today.
the one on my dad's side.
how random.
anyone gonna go to joyson's memorial service?

spring break!

yeah!
yeah!
yeah!
it's break!
but. I'm wasting it
playing putt putt
and pajama sam!
AND FREDDI FISH!
and jumpstart.
and whatnot.
these games are meant for ages 3-6.
shhh.
I guess that means I'm a kid at heart (;
oh and didya know freddi's a girl??
I always thought he was a guy..
watched spirited away today too.
I thought haku was a girl like freddy was a guy.
gosh. what's wrong with me?
I need more model ships or airplanes to build.
and keep me occupied.

poem.

it suddenly struck my mind.
easy day, easy post.
this was the poem we had to analyze for english comp.
I liked it (:

The Reader

She is going back, these days, to the great stories
That charmed her younger mind. A shaded light
Shines on the nape half-shadowed by her curls,
And a page turns now with a scuffing sound.
Onward they come again, the orphans reaching
For a first handhold in a stony world,
The young provincials who at last look down
On the city’s maze, and will descend into it,
The serious girl, once more, who would live nobly,
The sly one who aspires to marry so,
The young man bent on glory, and that other
Who seeks a burden. Knowing as she does
What will become of them in bloody field
Or Tuscan garden, it may be that at times
She sees their first and final selves at once,
As a god might to whom all time is now.
Or, having lived so much herself, perhaps
She meets them this time with a wiser eye,
Noting that Julien’s calculating head
Is from the first too severed from his heart.
But the true wonder of it is that she,
For all that she may know of consequences,
Still turns enchanted to the next bright page
Like some Natasha in the ballroom door—
Caught in the flow of things wherever bound,
The blind delight of being, ready still
To enter life on life and see them through.

very, very nice. I liked it anyways.
so today was okay, I guess.
dissecting fishes is fun.
with all the little organs and whatnot.
math comp was..surprisingly easy.
after stressing half the night before
I got the last problem right!
which made me really happy.
for those of you who don't know yet,
the answer's about 3.7 seconds and 116 ft
yeah. went to tc/library after school
nuttin' special.
now I gotta cram for honors recital tmrw.
yuck.

angels

at piano class
neriah's before me right?
so me and her mom are sitting there
and then she told me this story about joyson
right before he died:

"he saw these angels
coming to get him.
and then he asked them,
'can you guys hold a minute? I need to tell my parents something.'
so then he thanked his parents
for raising him these fourteen years.
and then went up with the angels."

I still feel touched
even though it's such a simple story
it's very faith inspiring.
I believe it. do you?

purposes.

I guess like emilyhwang said
maybe it was just time for joyson to go
he has already fulfilled his purpose
so God called him up.
let's think of it that way. and still,
let him remain in our memories
I want to remember joyson as that fun kid everyone says he is
not the kid I saw in the hospital so desperately sick
so clearly still in suffering.
joyson, it was time for you to go.
I'm glad you did.

well. today's comps weren't bad.
gotta study for english now.
haha I was talking to emilyhwang.
I like her insane-ness.

quote of the day:
"GO EAT YOUR OCEAN!"

comps D:

g'luck everyone
let's get through this together!
anyone have a lucky pen?
I need it.