on forgiveness

here's a little insight into how my brain works:

when you piss me off reaaaal bad

or hurt me or whatever

I'll probably be pretty damn upset for maybe

until I go to sleep and wake up in the morning

and by that time I think to myself, well, it really wasn't that big of a deal...

I'm not angry/sad anymore. I forgive you.

But then again, I think, if I just let you off the hook like that

What's going to stop you from hurting me again?

So most of the time I just act moody/upset at school when really, I'm not

(I convince myself that I am though)

I mostly do this to show you that your actions hurt me deeply

SO DON'T DO IT AGAIN.

sometimes it scares me how fast I get over things

my heart is willing to forgive, but my brain is not

because I think, dude that was really messed what you did... you don't deserve to be back in my good graces so easily.

so I make a show of being unwilling to let things go

but really, I'm a softy at heart

^the above only applies, however, if you're one of my close friends

if I don't know you well enough you're just screwed HAHA

:)