taiwan

it's that time of the year again and
I'm starting to miss my taiwan friends more and more.
because they really did ( and still do! ) mean a lot to me.
it was there that I felt really loved by everyone - and that's really rare lol
usually everyone's dissing me here ( I know it's just for fun, but still )
like. they seriously loved me! and that just feels so good (:
and I miss them.
I miss being able to take with them, about most anything.
miss messing around with them in chinese
miss walking around miao li all afternoon ( in the rain too! )
miss hearing everyone say my name when I walk on stage.
even though it's super embarrassing (:

but here I am missing them a bunch.
so I went and wrote on their "walls" (or the equivalent of a wall) on wretch (taiwan blogger)
just to say hi, hey, how are you doing, hope you're doing great!
....I don't even get a reply from any of them.
and that hurts. it's like. am I annoying to you or something? because if I am, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. I just really miss you guys a bunch & I can't say it enough because you guys are my home away from home. if I had to move away for no apparent reason anywhere I wished,
I'd pick taiwan - alice and vicky's house and go to da lun middle.
I'd feel at home there.
so when your family isn't returning any of your..."calls" it hurts, right?
well for me it does.

I'm probably never going to see them again anyways. even if I did, it'd be a loooong time from now.
and my students. wow I miss my students too (:
I don't know if I'll see them again. because at least for alice + nicole + vicky & co, they're believers. if it comes down to it we'll meet again in heaven, you know?
but for my students. I don't know what will happen to them. I don't know if they'll choose to follow christ or not - all I can do is pray. I still remember you guys. I still miss you guys. don't forget me!
and yeah, people come and go but.
I hate letting go >:[
it's so hard and it never actually works lol

I wrote a letter to them & gave it to josh since he's going back this year.
after that - I won't make any more attempts to contact them unless they talk to me first.
I'm tired of being disappointed.
no more! I love you, but unrequited love only goes so far.
but you guys will always be in my heart <3

pictures

I'm waiting on some pictures from michelle lee but.
I had a blast at lunch today :D
cause I borrowed michelle's ds to play with right?
and tiffchen was like OMG IS THAT THE NEW DS THAT CAN TAKE PICTURES.
it was the new ds that could take pictures, actually, so me and annie and tiffchen went camerawhoring :D
well it was mostly annie and tiffchen with me taking pictures but.
still! freaking hilarious (:
I promise to post pictures if I ever get them.
because they were like doing model poses and guitar hero stuff XD
very sensual ;]

smile please! :D

so I was walking around in the hallways with alice choi today after school
because she wanted to (& to get away from sam kim LOL)
and I see katti talking to ian over at student store!
in my opinion, she looked kinda sad. but maybe I'm delusional - I'd rather be delusional and think that my friends were sad and have them be happy, than be perceptive and have them actually be sad. (did you get that? because I kind of lost track halfway through. keke)
anywayssss. so I say hi, right? big smile too!
like this: "hi katti!!!!!!! :D"
and then she tells me, "you're so happy all the time."
so I reply: " does it cheer you up then?"
she thinks. and says: "un poco. (: "

you guys wanna know why I'm so happy all the time?
it's cause I'm just so delighted to see your wonderful faces (I won't say beautiful cause that's not true pwahahahah! jk. of course you guys are gorgeous ;]) that I can't help but smile!
I smile because, well, you guys are the best friends I could ever ask for.
sure we all have our flaws - but it's through interacting with the people around you that you're able to identify and fix them.
you guys do that for me, and I love you for it <3 br="">thank you.

and on a totally different toneeee
my knee kept hurting today. growing pains? maybe? yeah? :D
imuna be 5'4" someday, I promise!

we're gonna screech and scare your cares away.... :]

two things I need to say to myself:
1. my gut instincts about people's emotions are 95% correct! :D
2. I need to stop playing spider solitaire and study for spanish D:

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happy birthday to michelle chang!
and angel choi whose birthday was yesterday.
love you both my lovelies!

but today like.
just because of the birthday craziness that's been going on for the last couple of days
it reminded me of my birthday
and of how disappointed I felt when certain people didn't remember my birthday.
like people that I hang out with all the time but they just forgot! and.
it made me sad/wanting to cry (LOL I'm so shallow)
but yeah. and like when they said dude you should've said something! but errrr.
you're my friend. you're supposed to know, maybe yes kind of? okay yeah. (:

these past couple of days I've been very quick to anger. /agitated.
like. I was SUPER pissed at lilith when i called her after I came back from camping (which was a blast, btw. bang! + chasing squirrels with mimi + badminton)
and she didn't work on our project at all even when she promised to. >:[
I'm never working with her again.
I mean she's chill but her work ethic is like BLAH. ajlksdf;sajfl;wkjf

and i didn't post this before but it happened at your guys id practice
and hanna woo was bagging on me for coming & watching & spying.
when it's like. I'm already getting stuff from borah about it and borah is like one of my good friends! so it's okay even though it kind of hurts. (whatever it's all over now anyways)
but when hanna woo is all like SPY. GO AWAY.
and I've been to more practices than she has. it's not like I haven't seen any of it before and obviously I'm not telling anyone in my grade about it.
then I say something back and she comes over and pulls my hood tight over my head.
....I was seriously about to pull down on her arms hard enough to make her fall over and then start beating her up.
I was that pissed off. b/c I'm clearly stronger than her & I think I'd win if we fought.
but then she told me to let go of her arms and I was like.
okay. chill. no more.

yeahhhhhh :D
sorry just wanted to get that out of my system.

tomorrow hay examencito de historia y un examen de ESPANOL.
ew I hate barry >:[
ella no lleva un brassiere at least un dia cada semana.
es muy fea. me duelen mis ojos! D:
kekekekkee.

last id practice!

today was realllll cool.
last practice and all.
c/o of 2012, you guys are AMAZING.
all you peoples look sooo beauty-fo when you smiles :D
I think you guys are so cool that I'm gonna die of a heart attack hehehe.
[okay that didn't really make sense but whatever]
after id practice!
we tied angel to the poles :D
using her "overall" straps that came undone so we tied her up.
soooo freaking hilarious.
ask other people for pictures.
emily chang came over!
she still looks like a guy. because she dresses like a guy.
and has a deep voice ahhaha I can't think of her as a girl. (:

but yeah. id tmrw!
gonna buy padthai? chipotle? dunno!
we'll see (:

tests! >:[

I hate today tomorrow friday.
today = lee test part 1 short essay.
tomorrow = lee test part 2 multiple choice + breik test part 1 multiple choice
friday = breik test part 2 free responsee.

and I have to finish my civil war map which i never should have started.
but might as well finish it because I already put that much effort into it.
(besides, I kinda like it :] )

yesterday went to id practice.
lol tina was there at the end. but then she jumped me. and called me fat.
so I jumped her and threw her to the ground.
ahhaha jesspark came up at that exact moment and she was like O____O
kind of like. omg! what'd you just do emily? picking on little kids now?!
but me and alice were like yeeeeah :D high five.
but then tina gets up and slaps alice upside the head so I was like.
errr. oh crap. I didn't think it'd hurt that much.
I get thrown I just get up no big deal.
but I guess it hurt =/
well, tina's a tough kid. ahahhaha. I gave her my ear of corn to kind of make up for it.

but you know what!
INTERNATIONAL DAY IS COMING UP IN TWO DAYS WHOOPEEE.
then. CAMPING MEMORIAL DAY WEEKEND IN TWO DAYS TOO YAYYYY! :DD
get to torture little lucy all day hehhehe :)
if I don't come home! you know who to blame ;]
yeah I can't wait for id.
it's gonna be great! go buy your food tickets now everybody..!
or else you won't have any yummy yummy food to eat.

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oh yeah! this is like the MOST weirdest thing that happened to me today.
so I was sitting over on the bench by bruesch's room during snack.
cause that's where I most always sit, just to chill with esther and michelle lee and stuff right?
so I'm just sitting there. doing nothing. fa dai! as you would say in chinese (:
and all of a sudden a couple of scrubs come by and start talking to me.
they were like "you're that girl. right."
and I'm like. "yeahhhhh?"
and then they said "well ruthwick wants to ask you to aloha but he's too shy."
and then I'm like WTF. O_______O
then gabriel (gonzales) comes and says "yeah he likes you" or something along those lines.
and then he says "yes or no?"
.....no? duh? do you even have to ask >:[
I told him that I didn't believe him anyways.
I'm kind of flattered, actually . but inside I'm thinking. is this the best I can do? D:
ahahhaha :)
but then I told katti about it during spanish and she asked ruthwick if he was going to aloha and he said. no. I don't do dances.
so then I'm thinking were they lying to me? but there's no reason for them to lie so I'm like huhhhhhhhhhhh. -_-
yeah. (:

checklist

item # ?? on my list of things to do before I die:
feel an earthquake.
CHECK :D

emily chang (guy version)

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=571990663&ref=ts#/photo.php?pid=1225206&id=556547405
click on it! or copy/paste, whatever.
but anyways.
the other day me and michelle were talking about emily chang and how
she totally looks like a guy (a good-looking one)
and she said once avi and jennie and other people dressed her up as a guy, right?
and got her to walk around the mall to see if any girls would talk to her. XD
this is the picture. enjoy! :]

you guys,

if I ever say stuff on here
(and I probably won't because I've been getting in trouble for it)
about julian and michele.
you guys are seriously not allowed to talk about it to anyone else.
like. I'm dead serious.
I kicked shivanti off kind of cause of that (don't tell her I said that.)
and I'll kick you off too if I catch you in it.
but I really trust you guys so...
don't let me down, okay?

I'm not supposed to talk about stuff about them but sometimes...
it just gets to my head.
and I have no outlet. except for this, and you, my lovelies <3

more spidersolitaire!

beat my high score again :D
1175 ftw.

今天的事情:
我的哥哥跟他的nu3朋友今天又打架.
可是呢. 他們沒有...就是還是男-nu3朋友拉

wonder what it was about though.
so kelsey chang did not come to school today.
because her poor little stomach was hurting :P
errr. picked new teams for basketball!
I'm a captain (again). actually talked with flowers today about julian & michele ahahha (:
I love flowers.
so my team is me, tony, courtney (LOL I love this girl), michael, michael.
we're pretty decent.
pwned alice's team today 12-1 haha.

and dude. I sweat so much during pe it's so gross D:
yucky me :D

spider solitaire + pauline

pauline I think you are too cool to be a pushover.
be all RAWR and make then scared of you.
then put on your mean face >:[
and order everyone to do 50 push ups yay! :D

EVERYONE SHOULD LISTEN TO HER. (:

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HOHOOOOOO.
I just beat my old high score at spider solitaire (two suits, cause I suck at it)
1165, baby! :D
14 games won. 75 games played. win percentage: 18%
epic fail (:
and the sad thing is. all of these games have been played since I got kicked off the internet.
yeahhhhh :[

on the internet!

waiting for mr. lee to hurry up and sign on so I can ask him a question about our quiz tomorrow.
hoorah. joy. yippee.
I swear he just loves to nitpick details.
I bet you him and rosenberg and elberson sit together at lunch in the teacher's lounge and just talk about how to make variations on one answer. geez! cut us some slack, okay? >:[
[he signed on. I asked him. it's the whole dang section we're getting tested on D: ]

sooooo I kind of got in trouble again the other day with my mom.
I'm supposed to be nicer to julian. but dude. do you know how freaking hard it is.
cause seriously like, I really don't respect him right now.
and it's hard to "love" someone you don't respect.
my mom tells me that in order to even start loving him I have to want to first.
and ask God for help in doing so, to give me more love.
but I don't want to right now. maybe a couple weeks from now,
but most def not today.

don't know when I'm going to post again.
hopefully sometime this week? (:
anddd. should I go to your guys' id practice this friday.
I actually have homework that I can bring to do like piano theory and chinese ahahaha.
but yeah, what do you guys thinkkk.

PRIVATE

hehehehheh I closed up my blog.
just because I want to.
to prevent unwanted eyes from peering in.

me and julian aren't exactly on the friendliest of terms.
I know he's my brother but stilll.
that doens't mean I have to like him, right?

anywayssss. track meet was largely uneventful.
there was this girl though! natalie, I think? white/mexican, my grade.
they were running the 1600. first & second place are done,
her and tetzlaff + haskell are competing for third. (she's ahead of them)
down to the last 50 meters! and then...
one of the other schools tries to cut in. but then trips her! ON PURPOSE.
so she stumbles. then. the other school trips her again! >:[
so she finished 5th.
and they claim it was an accident, but dude
just how hard is it to cut in without tripping someone
it's a mile. you guys are all tired. not running to fast.
liars - -xx
tetzlaff got the sportsmanship award too (we should've got that)

BLEHHHH. yeah.
well. no piano for a month! these weeks should be pretty good.

new url!

shooooot I haven't posted in a while haha.
but first! please don't link to this blog on your blogs.
because I don't really want julian to read it so don't tell him or michele about it either okay?
I know it's kind of mean but yeahhhh.
I'm a mean person. (:

so anyways!
nothing much has been happening. or at least nothing of importance.
but I just wanted to say that
I was really touched the other day by kelsey's singing.
iono! it was one of those weird moments.
we're just sitting there in breik cause she's doing her hwk because she NEVER does her hwk at home. andd. she's just singing softly because she likes to sing
(she has a BEAUTIFUL voice btw [: )
specifically, at the cross - hillsong.
yeah I didn't tell her that I was touched cause it'd be kind of weird.
but I was! (:
anyways here's the part she was singing (the bridge.)

You tore the veil,
You made a way
When you said that it is done.

yeahhhh that was just something that's been hanging in my mind for the last day and a half. (:
(LOL I think that was the day when jess called and talked about awkward stuff. ehehee.)
someone remind me to bring food for katti too!
and today I got a cascaron cause of spanish presentations :D